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Keep On Movin

2010-03-22T19:32:00.003+08:00

I've migrated.

Again.

Here

Wait! They Don’t Love You Like I Love You

2010-03-07T17:56:00.002+08:00

Pack up;
Don’t stray;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say!

Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I don't feel like writing.

It's Not All Roses and Happy Endings

2010-03-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

I see trees of brown, burnt roses too,
They're all fucked up, 'cause of me and you,
And I think to myself,
What a fucked up world.

You Crazy Bugger, You Can't Do All This! What Are You, A Mormon?!

2010-02-17T00:08:00.004+08:00

He is undeniably absolutely fabulously funny. If you appreciate British humour (which can be quite dry at times, and requiring more brainpower and pinches of salt than some people seem to be able to handle) you might appreciate it ;)

Holy shit I'm posting a video. Never has happened before, but I think this one is worth a post.

So anyway, it's been roughly a week since I got back in Perth, and it's been alright so far. Finally got all my stuff in today, so I've finally fully moved in, I suppose.

Très bien.

I Change Shapes Just to Hide in This Place

2010-02-11T14:54:00.001+08:00

In your eyes I see the eyes of somebody of who could be strong,
Tell me if I'm wrong.
And now I'm pulling your disguise up,
Or you free or are you tied up.

Animal - Miike Snow

I'm in Perth.

Control Yourself, Take Only What You Need From It

2010-01-31T00:41:00.006+08:00

I know there’s something down below,
So I’ll keep reaching in.

5 Feet of Snow (Miami Horror Remix) - The Dirty Secrets

It's been a hectic week, with me planning things and purchasing stuff, which hopefully will boost my interest in photography. I can't wait for tomorrow to be over.

On another note, who the fuck were all those people at TAG yesterday?! Gile ah!

Experiment, Success!

2010-01-27T04:22:00.006+08:00

She wears short skirts,
I wear T-Shirts

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

Experimented with a few flashes, and some ghetto soft-boxes made of shoe-boxes. And it was a success! Wheeee

Camera courtesy of Lisa. 400D + 24-70 2.8 L.
Shoe is the Nike Aloha Dunk

Music Is What It's All About

2010-01-23T05:33:00.002+08:00

We're burning down the highway skyline,
On the back of a hurricane that started turning.

When You Were Young - The Killers

AA 24/7

2010-01-16T06:00:00.004+08:00

2 Many DJs was awesome!

Rupa Mu, Masih, Masih, Masih, Masih

2010-01-14T03:50:00.001+08:00

Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu,
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yg terang

Itu Kamu - Estranged

Damn, this song still gives me goosebumps after all these years.

Terdiam Kerana Berwarna Ungu, Kuputuskan Biar Bisu

2010-01-11T16:56:00.004+08:00

Kutatap berseri berwarna hijau
Yang menawan sanubari

Aurora - Estranged

Meet Uncle Hussein

So last night I went to AJL 2010 with a few friends, thanks to my dad for the tickets. We got there quite early, actually, but had to wait for the girls, and so had problems getting in. Thanks again to my dad. Then the place was so packed that we had to resort to standing. We eventually got seats (which were very unconventional seats, and we were not supposed to even sit there, I suppose), and again, thanks to my dad. Hahaha.

Winner of AJL 2010, Aizat

They enjoyed the show, which was good. I was pretty.. restless, all throughout the show. I was analyzing audio, performances, backstage stuff, all that nonsense. Hahahaha. I can't even go to an event without thinking about all that anymore. Ish I miss that life.

The crowd. Packed to the rafters.

I Need a Direction to Perfection, No No No

2010-01-08T02:48:00.005+08:00

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the back burner
You know you got to help me out

All These Things That I've Done - The Killers

Outside, for a change

Today was a pretty good day, and it's not because I was out doing good things, which I rarely do, anyway, but because I woke up pretty early, and I spent my time at home being somewhat creative, playing Tap-Tap 3 till my fingers ached, and also managing to finish a book.

Was supposed to come up with a new blog design, and was oh so inspired to do it, but after struggling with my header, I lost all interest in doing it, and my attention wandered. Bahh.

I did come up with this though. I've wanted to do something like it since Christmas, but never really got to it. Um.. Yeah.

What snowmen are like at night

So that's about it. Oh, on Sunday I'm going to AJL. Aside from that, my days in Malaysia are numbered, and the countdown to Perth begins. Bum bum bummmm.

32 Days

Play Me a Sad Song, Because That's What I Want To Hear

2010-01-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

I know that you’ll go soon.
You’ll find out so take me with you always.

Sad Song - Au Revoir Simone

Use the force, Luke!

2009 came and went. Woosh! So yeah. It was by far the most interesting year that I've had. There were so many ups, downs, roundabouts, u-turns, dead-ends, wrong-ways and crowded motorcycle lanes that it wasn't funny.

SO! This isn't going to be some whimsical pining piece of writing that reflects on the past year and whatnot. I leave those things behind me, and look forward to better things. 2010 should be a good year. Bout two years till earth's destruction too, if some things were to be believed. Hopefully by then I've got enough photographic and video equipment to properly document it.

So anyway. Yesterday, I bought myself two movies which I haven't seen yet which makes me look like the most outdated 21-year-old in the history of toilet paper. Bought myself Star Trek and District 9.

Both were excellent movies, both with different impacts. I loved Star Trek though, because it gave me goosebumps when I think back about the members of the Enterprise and how they got together. Plus I think Spock looks like Kwee Jin. Hahahaha!

Kids Wanna Bop, Out In the Street

2009-12-22T01:19:00.006+08:00

Bang! You're so evil baby.
Bang! You're no sweetheart baby.
Bang! You keep me blushing all the time.

Bang! - The Raveonettes

I was bored. I wanted to play around.

Ooo.. er..

Just now went and met up with Anusha and the rest of the 8TV gang at TTDI, and it was a fun gathering, aside from the fact that I got called buntal tembam comel gemuk and stuff to that effect. Gah!

This is a good song (clickety click)

Bang! - The Raveonettes

Bang!

And When I Caught It You Were Out Of Reach

2009-12-19T05:12:00.010+08:00

But I'm sure, I'm sure,
You've heard it before.

Heart Skipped a Beat - The XX

Whoa hey I've cleaned my room, properly this time. Hahahaha. It started off grudgingly, but then I got into the flow of things, and I ended up doing it properly. Cleaned out my closet too, and I've removed tonnes of stuff that I don't need anymore (e.g. clothes). Now I'm left with less than 20 pieces of clothing, though I take that as an excuse to go out and get more ;D

Went to TAG just now with Kinz, Andrew, Meph, and met with some long lost people there, and in that sense it was a nice night. But TAG in itself was pretty boring. Music banyak tak layan, and crowd was only so-so. And there was a creep! Hahahahaha! Meh.

Me under my leaf =D

Tomorrow (Saturday) and Sunday are "Eman is a good boy and will stay at home" days, though, so hopefully I shall stick to that. And I also want to lose some weight. I'm touching 60kg! Crazy! I want to go back to 55. Hahahaha.

Oh. Check these songs out (click to download):

Night by Night - Chromeo
Gimme Sympathy - Metric

Till next time, it's closing time, and I know who I want to take me home ;)

Girl If It's Alright, 100%

2009-12-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

It's intellectual, I want to let you know,
I won't let you go, until you say please.

100% - Chromeo

I'm back, and I'll update this place sometime in the near future, hopefully.

Que Tu M'aimais Encore

2009-11-02T13:15:00.007+08:00

C'est quelqu'un qui m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore.
Serait-ce possible alors ?

Quelqu'un m'a dit - Carla Bruni

I haven't slept since yesterday. Hahaha. I had a hand in an exhibition installation just now in uni at about 10 am so yeah, I decided to stay up after a late-ish night.

Mine is the one with some words splashed across the face. White poster with red illustration of a face.

And I was trying to keep myself awake last night, so I drew. Well sort of.

Why do you let me stay here?

Splish Splash

2009-10-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

kinmeng says: (22:15:00)
ehh u busy now?

eman says: (22:15:05)
wasap karipap

kinmeng says: (22:15:12)
i nak gi berak.. nak ikut?

eman says: (22:15:17)
NIAHAI ARH

eman says: (22:15:22)
hahahaha

kinmeng says: (22:15:23)
farker last time u say tak ajak

I miss home.

We'll Work It Out Someday

2009-10-07T02:22:00.003+08:00

If I could do something,
Well you can do something.
If I could do anything,
Can you do something out of this world?

Dreamer - Supertramp

Duck I bought during the trip

I'm better, especially after coming back from Margaret River, and a post will be coming for that trip (actually a post was up, for a few hours, but I took it down because it was messy), it's just that I have lost the mood to post it all up. I've actually lost the mood to do quite a bit of things.

I think I need to start running again. Start there and work my way back into normality. Better, but not yet normal.

Please don't worry bout me, I'm fine.
Only gonna play the fool, one time.

Temporary Goodbye

2009-09-29T18:01:00.001+08:00

Friend is a Four Letter Word

2009-09-29T03:30:00.006+08:00

To me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.
End is the only part of the word
That I heard.

Friend Is A Four Letter Word - Cake

Why is it that it takes so little to make me happy, but it also takes so little to make me feel so meh? What kind of fuckery is this? Why am I wired in such a way that these things happen? What the fuck went wrong in my genetic engineering? And why the fuck do I need to jot this down? Gah!

I wish I was a turtle. Hah! That hasn't been uttered in a long long time. I think it deserves a comeback.

Hopefully the next few days when I'm getting away from this fucked-up godforsaken shithole for a bit will help.

Some things are easier said than done.

Hey Jude, Don't Make It Bad

2009-09-28T05:41:00.002+08:00

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain,
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that its a fool who plays it cool,
By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude - The Beatles

I tried to get it right, but I couldn't.
I tried to tell you, but I couldn't.

L-O-V-E's Just Another Word I Never Learned to Pronounce

2009-09-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

Tight jeans, Double D's makin' me go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistles whistles]
Iced-out, lit-up make the kids go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistle whistle]

Starstrukk - 3OH!3 ft. Katy Perry

Buang masa melukis

Assignmentssss! =(

You Don't Need Money, Don't Take Fame

2009-09-15T21:46:00.010+08:00

Don't need no credit card to ride this train
Its strong and its sudden and its cruel sometimes
But it might just save your life

Power of Love - Huey Lewis and the News

Watched Back To The Future (again) the other night, since I couldn't sleep. Fell in love (again) with Lea Thompson in that movie. Gah! She looked so sweet with her blue dress and white shoes.

Here's my phail attempt at illustrating her

Wall of Fame material:

eman says: (21:42:54)
i wanna bathe lahhhh!

c a r y n says: (21:43:56)
bathe laaa

c a r y n says: (21:43:58)
im not watching

I think I've a pretty creepy friend.
She's pretty, and yet, creepy, at the same time. Hahaha

In other news, Monday was a terrific day! It was bright and sunny, I felt loads better, I did my laundry (everyone was doing their laundry, it was like, the fellowship of dirty clothes or something), had a long chat with friends while waiting for the dryer to finish um.. drying, went out to have dinner, got bitten on the shoulder, had ice cream, and and and.. my package arrived! Wheee! Delivered right to my doorstep. Finally, after missing out on the previous generations, my iPhone has landed. Mac assimilation, complete!

And here's the first photo taken with it. Razeen's chest, wtf.

And You Will Hold My Heart Inside Your Hand

2009-09-14T04:27:00.005+08:00

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

We Will Not Grow Old - Lenka

My last update was kinda weird, wasn't it? Hahaha. Of all things, complaining about the length of time my flatmate spent in our bathroom. I think he might be thinking the same thing every time I'm in the bathroom, since I seem to spend ages in there as well (gotta love hot showers and nice-smelling bodywash).

Anyway, I've been sick for the past few days, and I put it down to being caught in the rain a lot. The weather here is very weird, and erratic (not erotic, though that would be pretty interesting, I believe). On Thursday, I got caught in the rain a fair few times, on the way to Uni, and on the way back. On Friday, it was wet and windy in the city. Cue headaches, fever and colds.

It's like the sun is playing peek-a-boo with us, coming out when it wants to, and at other times spitting/pissing on us. If it's a fine light misty drizzle, then it's sneezing. Then there's the wind. It's like walking in a wind tunnel at times. Thank god I have a pretty aerodynamic shape, meaning I can just cut through the wind with relative ease, compared to someone who is built like a truck. Speaking of which, I think I wanna keep my hair long this time, so that when the wind blows, my hair can blow about in the wind. I like the feeling too, of wind going through my hair.

So yeah, I've been pretty sick. But it fluctuates. It's like, I get this sudden headache that feels like a 10-tonne truck just rammed straight into my head and simultaneously exploding whilst a high-pitched whine is playing in the background, just loud enough to annoy the shit out of me. Then after about 5 minutes I'm alright again. Bah. Today I kinda felt worse and yet, better.

Woke up today, after having one of the most restless sleep sessions in my life, feeling like the world was spinning. Whoa! But the rest of the day passed with nothing real interesting happening, save for me taking a nap at about 5 and waking up at 7.30, feeling better. Made myself some sausage, egg and toast (oh my, Eman, making a full fledged breakfast, for dinner?).

Then I headed to Nawar's to collect some chicken (and she served me green tea, thank you very much), and made my way to Caryn's for tea (yet again, but how can I resist?), which made me feel better. Or perhaps it was the walk to and from Nawar's, the exposure to the bone-chilling ball-shrinking hair-standing pee-freezing cold waking me up beyond belief.

And now I'm awake. Because I woke up. Duh. Another restless sleep. Fixed myself a cup of soup, and I can just feel the drowsiness begin again. Tomorrow, I hope, I will be fixed, and that should mark the beginning of a very good week, with a significant date coming up. Ah, hmmmm.

It's been quite of a while since I could experience your brightness.
Now you've got a brighter smile and I think I'm going to like it.

Pogo (Shinichi Osawa Remix) - Digitalism

Oh, Woe is Me

2009-09-09T09:40:00.002+08:00

My flatmate is taking ages in the bathroom. This is absurd. This has never happened. My feet feel cold.

(Do and Don't)s

2009-09-09T00:34:00.001+08:00

Your laugh rings in my ears,
Your voice, inside my head.
I put a smile on my face,
But inside, I feel dead.

So I took your picture down,
Thinkin of skipping town,
This place is just too much,
And I think I'm gonna drown.

I hate this, yet it's self-inflicted. Over-analysing seems to be a fault of mine. Over-thinking things too. I can rarely "go with the flow", and am hardly spontaneous. Even typing this post got me thinking twice about what to say. The temptation to just cmd+a and delete is there.

I hate assignments, amongst other things.

Oh, on a happier note, I'm okay. I just felt like doing this. Big grin, see? =D

I lie to myself every day.

Edit: Lisa says I'm cheating, so I'm putting this back up.

Sememangnya

2009-09-07T04:32:00.005+08:00

I'm no good at this.

Whatever Happens, I'll Leave It All To Chance

2009-09-06T03:49:00.003+08:00

I'll face it with a grin!
I'm never giving in!
On with the show!

The Show Must Go On - Queen

One of my best friends is gay and has weird fetishes. FML

You'd Think That People Would've Had Enough of Silly Love Songs

2009-09-04T03:08:00.002+08:00

I look around me and I see it isn't so, oh no.
Some people wanna fill the world with silly love songs.

Elephant Love Medley - Ewan McGregor & Nicole Kidman

I just watched Moulin Rogue (finally), and I have to say it was very very entertaining, though the ending did leave me feeling kind of bleh, meh, and drained. I had to stop and think, and also fix myself a teapot of tea (shamelessly making myself at home in Caryn's flat). It was better than what I expected, though I'm not quite sure what it was that I expected. I liked the treatment, and I loved the music.

So exciting, the audience will stomp and cheer!
So delighting, it will run for 50 years!

On a totally different topic, this holiday week has whizzed by very fast, and I can't seem to remember where my days have gone. I've two assignments due next week, so I know I'm going to have to finish up soon. Both are half-way done, so it won't be too bad to get them finished.

The Smell Of Your Hair Is Literally Amazing, Honestly

2009-08-28T00:26:00.005+08:00

You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it

Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

I knowwww I'm gonna get so much shit for this, especially from all you guys. Haha. But, well.. uh.. yeah, I can't really explain myself for wanting to go for this. Turned down shitloads of gig invites, and the one concert I go to is Britney Spears ey? Well life's like that. Unpredictable ;)

Oh and I just saw the results of tonight's Champions League draw, and we've got CSKA Moscow, Besiktas and Vfl Wolfburg. Hrm hrm. Not an easy group.

And We Will Only Need Each Other, We'll Breathe Together

2009-08-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

You got me skippin' down the street,
And singin' love songs all out of key,
I didn't smoke nothin' but I feel so high,
And I know why.

La La La - LMFAO

I'm 21, and to be honest, I know I could've been happier. For one thing, I celebrated it away from home, so no royal visits, no ultimate 21st birthday gift and all that guff. Add to that the fact that Ramadan decides to fall on my 21st birthday, so.. hurm.. But it's not too bad ey.

I find I'm eating kurmas (dates) like chocolate. It's so weird, I used to hate those things.

I want a 1d mark3 for my birthday laaaa! =(

Not a car, not some weird ass key or lock or whatever shit nonsense people get on their 21st, but a dream camera. Gah! Even if it isn't a 1d3, a 1d mark 2N pun I happy.

I love my lecturers this semester, I've one that's a Mac-head who teaches me design and stuff, and his classes are all so entertaining and interesting, there's a scriptwriter who.. you guessed it, wrote scripts and is a lovely lady who is easy to talk to about my studies, and another lecturer who insists on calling everyone bastard, eg: "Tiger Woods, I think that bastard is a very good golfer". It's especially funny as he has an African accent, so he pronounces it as "Basted".

I think this semester is pretty decent, study-wise.

And I've been having pretty regular movie nights, yesterday being a pretty.. weird one. We watched Eiffel, I'm In Love, and it was interesting, in a sense, yet disturbing as well. After the movie, Caryn turned to say to me "I'm never letting you date an Indonesian girl if they're like that". And I can't fault her, the girl is such a brat/bitch/weirdo kid. Ish!

Tomorrow it's Little Manhattan, I think.

And with that, adios, and happy fasting people =D

Give a man fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire.. well..

Please Forgive Me

2009-08-19T02:05:00.004+08:00

Please forgive me, I know not what I do

Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams

So it's been a rough few days for me, filled with emotional outbursts and shit happening. Nothing that I can't cope with, but always bordering on the point of driving me off the edge. I feel like coming back during the week long break, just to get away from this sometimes hell-hole. I think this semester, though it does have ups, has downs as well.

Classes are okay, people are nice, my head is not in the right place, yeah that kind of thing is going on.

And FML I just found out I might've lost like, 6 kg since I came here. I'm now, according to a weighing scale that I'm not sure is at all trustworthy, 49.8 kg. Holy underweight batman!

Q. How many mystery writers does it take to change a light bulb?
A. Two. One to screw it in most of the way and the other to give it a surprise twist.

Badum Pshhh!

Wind Me Up and Put Me Down

2009-08-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

Shut up
Hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk to loud?

Jerk It Out - The Caesars

FUCK YOU

No One Needs To Know We're Feeling

2009-08-01T05:56:00.003+08:00

Higher and higher and higher
Higher and higher and higher
But I feel alive and I feel it in me

Little Secrets - Passion Pit

So I'm back in Perth, and it's hell cold (not sure how that works, since hell is presumably hot and whatnot), like, balls-shrink-masuk-perut sleep-wearing-3-layers-of-clothes piss-and-break-pee-off cold. I think it's partly because I am so used to the hot and humid and bleargh Malaysian weather, and also partly because it memang is bloody cold.

I've two new flatmates, one girl who seems very cool, and one guy (we think, because we haven't really seen him/her). It felt good to be back, and it was awesome to open my room door again, after nearly 2 months of leaving it. I've lost a mug, but I'm glad my pans and plates and cutlery are all still here.

Classes start next week, I have some shit to settle, so yeah.

It's good to be back =D

This Time Baby, I'll Be Bulletproof

2009-07-29T18:09:00.001+08:00

Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
I won't let you in again

Bulletproof - La Roux

I hate you Lim Kin Meng

Forget Your Name, Forget Your Fear

2009-07-27T06:00:00.001+08:00

No one is spared
No one is clean
It travels places
You've never been
Or seen before

The Night Starts Here - Stars

I think I should start developing some of my photos.

Crawling Up The Walls, Like A Cat In Heat

2009-07-24T16:53:00.005+08:00

And I fell, and I fell
All the way to the bottom
Of the well, of the well
Like those soft little secrets
That you tell, that you tell
To yourself, when you think
No one's listening to, well

Wishing Well - The Airborne Toxic Event

One week till lift-off, and I've got to say Malaysia has been very fun. I've gone out more times than I can count, I've met up with loads of great people, attended awesome events and enjoyed myself very much.

The other day someone told me, very seriously, (like "I'll beat the shit out of you if you don't pay attention, so pay attention. Or I'll beat the shit out of you. Cos if you don't pay attention, then I'll beat the shit out of you. Don't make me beat the shit out of you. You don't want me to beat the shit out of you" seriously), that some people were worried about me, because I used to be pretty sharp and on the ball, in their terms, and now I'm less than that. I'm not my usual sarcastic-nasty-sharp-bitchy-witty-quick-to-retort self now, and I know they're right.

I blame it on the lack of mental challenges I've been facing. Yeah, I still read, I still try to practice my English, and whatnot lah! But it's not enough, I guess. The times when I felt like, my mind was actually working was when I had to photograph a few events, where I had to be on my toes. Aside from that, I find my mind rotting. Ack! I can't even come up with quick retorts when challenged, oh my god. I resort to lame and witless jokes nowdays, which is a bitch, because I know I'm better than that.

Even uni challenges aren't the same, being less challenging, or a different kind of challenging, compared to what work had in store for me. Could be the course, could be me, could be my approach to things in uni, but I find it not as mentally challenging as I'd imagine, or would prefer. They do little to nothing to hone my wit.

Blue is a nice colour, but green is better. Grass is green, nuff said.

Here Comes A Drum Beat, I'm Moving My Feet

2009-07-22T16:35:00.004+08:00

They take a piece of me
Enjoy the scenery
Counting back from ten
But I will never fall asleep

Numb - Ben Lee

Got this in the mail today. I'm now a member of Canon Malaysia's CPS. Not that big a deal as it's not as hard to join as compared to other countries, but yay. Hahaha. Ada la dapat a little bit of discount (20% actually, which is not too bad) for repairs and stuff, so that's a real bonus.

Oh! Another pair of shoes! Wheeeee! Finally, a black pair. Hahaha. Now I can complete the rempit look which I know kinz would love. Ada high-cut shoes (though I think blazers are mid, not high), skinny jeans, and xs tees.

And one of my cats (Patrick) had to go for some minor surgery to remove some crystals or something in his bladder/kidney (one of those la, not sure which). Kesian gila weh! He's so groggy and like, high right now. Hahahaha. And he's under house arrest for 4 days.

So now he has something like a catheter (which is roughly the diameter of a vitagen straw) stuck up his pee pee. Ack!

Cahaya Terang Menembusi, Bagai Sebuah kisah Misteri

2009-07-18T17:04:00.006+08:00

Siang malam termimpi mimpi
Pagi petang tercari cari
Tiap saat ternanti nanti
Kau masih tiada disisi

Mirage - Pesawat

Yes, I went for 8TV's Shout! Awards. It was a pretty good event, felt big, and some very good performances. There were a few fuck-ups here and there, specially with the mikes, and the biggest fuckhead in the world Sean Kingston, ntah mana la ko nak jalan sampai blakang pentas.

He can't even sing properly, damn the fool. But oh well, he got the crowd going, so hey ho, I guess he's good for something. Like making mayonnaise, as I quote A Girl Named Lisa:

"then sean kingston came on, practically sweating mayonnaise as he bobbed around, mouthing a few words here and there."

Hahaha! Memang pun.

So overall I enjoyed the show, I found the artiste performances pretty good, the sound system rocked, and the people nice to look at. I just wish I was more involved in it.

It's the Good Times That We Shared, and the Bad Times That We'll Have

2009-07-12T02:20:00.009+08:00

It's twenty seconds till the last call
You're going "hey hey hey hey hey hey"
Lie down you know it's easy

1901 - Phoenix

I attended Nike's Lunar Glide media run thing last Thursday, and it was pretty interesting. It was a media event, so there were people from all sorts of.. erm.. media. It drizzled a little, during the briefing, and as they were preparing to run, but most, if not all, of them were quite pumped to run, so what little rain there was didn't matter.

I didn't run though, I was there to take pictures. And what little rain there was, didn't matter, though I did ask Kinz for his consent to using his camera in the drizzle. Mana la tau, kan? Hahahah.

Picturesss
(not sure up to what extent I can release the photos, so I'm just putting the ones I think are safe, and that I like, up) :

Aside from that, nothing new has happened. I still sleep late, I still go out at night, I still think I'm gaining unnecessary weight, and I tend to waste time thinking about inane things. However, I did find out that I'm quite the sadist, and I can be a brutally mean fella if I so wanted to. Interesting things to know, though I think I've known them for quite some time.

So yeah, Eman's bad traits would be mean, callous, sarcastic, cold, amongst loads of many other things.

Whoop!

Wear Your Real Eyes, No You Don't Realise

2009-07-06T04:50:00.005+08:00

Forever is a long long time
When you've lost your way
Trying to follow your ideal
Oh sorry but your so called life
It is such a waste

Lasso - Phoenix

Ack, my 70-200 has finally succumbed to the abuse I put it through. It's my workhorse for outdoor shoots, and I'm going to have to send it in for repairs. Damnation, hopefully it won't take so long and impair my work.

See those smears for the out-of-focus areas? Well damn. It's like there's a circle of focus, and whatever that is outside that circle is smeared towards the circle, instead of being nicely blurred. Gah! And of all times to discover this, I found out during a pretty damn important shoot. Thank god Kinz was there to backup.

So yeah, hopefully it won't take more than a week to repair this.

Edit: Estimated time of repair for my lens = minimum 5 working days. FML

Edit 2: Really FML, my lens repair cost is RM948

And She's Buying A Stairway to Heaven

2009-07-05T05:59:00.007+08:00

There's a sign on the wall
But she wants to be sure
Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.

Stairway to Heaven - Led Zeppelin

Heavyyyy!
2 x 40D + 400D + 24-70 2.8 L + 24-70 2.8 Sigma + 10-20 4-5.6 Sigma + 580 EXII + Sigma 530 DG Super + 430 EX

Caryn has got to be one of the funniest people I've met.

I think July is going to be a blast. Busy as I can get with work, I still managed to get in some time with some friends, though admittedly not everyone. So far in July I've managed to help somewhat save a clothing disaster, play futsal, meet someone whom I haven't seen a long time, watch a live band perform, get lost in Ampang, take tonnes of photographs, stay out very late, sleep very late, wake up very late, have Japanese dinner, bitch about people, and generally living my life.

My body in general has been protesting my activities as of late, since I don't seem to get enough rest, and I somewhat strain myself too much. My shoulders and wrists bear the brunt of my work, and they can be a bitch when they start to ache.

Sakit.. =(

I've got more thing to do in the upcoming weeks, so I'll be a busy bee, but I think I can manage to throw in some fun here or there.

And oh! H1N1 @ Urbanscapes, well, I didn't get sick or whatnot, so I didn't go check. Yeah. Whatever. Hahahaha

Not Easily Offended, Know How To Let It Go

2009-06-28T03:20:00.006+08:00

Ending this love for gentlemen only
Wealthier gentlemen only
Now that you’re lonely
Too late too late too late she’ll be late too late too late

Lisztomania - Phoenix

I've been so busy for the past week, and I haven't had decent sleep in ages. Then Andrew decides to call me out for Urbanscapes 2009, and I thought hey why not, enjoy a little after so much stress. And it turned out to be fun! Met so many people that I haven't seen in ages.

Stayed on and enjoyed lights and music till management decided to cut power to the speakers. HAHAHAHA!

Pictures! I'm only putting up the party pictures, as they're the only real nice ones I've got. The rest are pretty boring, and you can see what they're all about on just about any other person's blog.

More party photos at my Flickr here

On another note, good luck to those running in the marathon tomorrow!

The Scent of a Lemon Drips From Your Eyes

2009-06-15T18:55:00.005+08:00

I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave me,
But I know I try,
Are you gonna leave me now,
Can't you be believing now.

We Are the People - Empire of the Sun

Kinz wanted me to post up the pictures of Meph and I masa kat KLCC, so yeah. Wish I had a story to go along with this post, but alas, 'tis not to be.

Saturday night I went out and met up with Caryn and Arthur at Poppy, was Rosalyn's birthday, and I was asked if I wanted to come, so I thought why not, have some fun and all. Damn was the place crowded. It's like, filled to the brim with all these weird looking chinese people (you know, those sotongs, lalas, clams. Seafood, in general). And and and! It was hot! Aaaaah! It was like stepping into a sauna in a desert during summer in the afternoon. HOT! Tapi fun jugak la.

Yesteryday (Sunday), or rather this morning, I was out with Kinz and Andrew, went to Kinz's place to checkout some stuff, and just generally waste time watching Andrew trying to put his middle toe up. Hilarious shit. Oh, and I messed with Kinz's twitter HAHAHA!

So anyway, after everything was said and done, I went home with a pair of shoes :D It's been a while since I bought a pair, so I just had to get one. Hopefully another one is on the way too.

Then today I woke up at 11.45 (holy shit that's early) cos Razeen called and asked if I wanted to meet up and have lunch, since he just touched down from Perth. Called Caryn and I sounded dead on the phone, made her say "Oh my god", fetched her, and we headed to the Curve. Buk bak buk bak badum psssh we ended up at Starbux, where hilarious random shit happened.

Left at about 5.30, cos I needed to fetch Lisa, and babadada I got stuck in the jam of Satan in SS2. Pasar malam and shit. Ceh!

So yeah, that's it, and I have futsal later with Raj. Ahhhhh

I Kinda Get To Thinking Of All The Things You Said

2009-06-09T21:40:00.004+08:00

Open up your eyes, you keep on crying baby I'll bleed you dry
The skies they blink at me, I see a storm bubbling up from the sea

Closer - Kings Of Leon

Had a pretty good and long day today. Went out at around 11-ish to meet up with Arthur and Caryn, lama tak jumpa diorang kan, so yeah had a sorta brunch thing. It was fun, interesting, and I think my right shoulder might be bruised from all the smacking that I recieved in the car.

Then at about 1.30 I headed off to the LRT station and to KL to meet up with Kinz and Meph, and we took some photos whilst walking around the Pasar Seni area. Interesting, actually, but kinda hot for me. Ahhh! Not . Used . To . Weather .

I planned to get myself a cheap watch, and hey ho I did! Hahahaha. I'm happy, and I want two more to be satisfied.

Then we headed on to KLCC for Meph to meet up with some dodgy looking dude for a game. Hmmm. Hahaha. Lepak-ed outside and in, and took loads of photos.

And Kinz, the bastard, let me play with his lens. Pundek! It's so wideeeeee. Gah. Hahahaha. I can't wait for my next acquisition then.

Good day, I say.

You're Just A Cold Dust Girl

2009-06-09T02:46:00.003+08:00

If you're so clever and cool, who ever could turn you on
But I'm so clever it takes no effort to burn you on.

Cold Dust Girl - Hey Champ

I am bored! Hahaha. Wow. Baru balik satu minggu dah bosan. Met up with people for the past week, since touching down on Thursday morning. Had my fair share of mamak food and lepaking. I might be a little busy in the coming weeks, depending on how things go. But for now, it's been pretty dull for me at night. Bah.

Here's a half-arsed drawing that I did. Took me about an hour and a half. Really cbf work, actually. Hahahaha.

They've Been With Me Through It All

2009-05-25T18:25:00.002+08:00

And they will be, for the next week or so.

Gotta get cracking!

You can touch the moment, almost feel it in the air,
Don't know where we're goin' baby we don't even care,
Ain't no mystery just use your imagination,
Let it take you there

Don't Stop Movin - S Club 7

Why Do You Let Me Stay Here

2009-05-22T22:12:00.005+08:00

My first shot at this. Horribly hard! Espeically the hair, and lips. And her face looks fat.

I don't know how Lisa can stand doing this.

Edit:

Here's another one. Addictive lah! Yang ni besar sikit.

Count Backwards, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1

2009-05-22T15:44:00.010+08:00

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop til the break of dawnin
Keep on movin dont stop rockin (ahh ahh ahh)

Five - Keep on Movin'

So after hours upon hours of slogging away at the computer and burning my retinas by scanning bits of code to look for errors that I couldn't possibly have made, but Flash says I did an error, but when I look all I can see is black, white and blue, in a jumble of incomprehensible language, such as :

and pixel alignments (It's only 0.5 pixels off damnit! Why won't you align?!), I'm finally done with my web design assignment. Yay!

Of course, during the time I was working on it, and the time leading up to the deadline, Adobe Flash decides to play peek-a-boo with me, and suddenly disappears after the magic rainbow ball makes a cameo appearance.

In case you're wondering what the hell a magic rainbow ball looks like, here's an illustration:

I've been taxing and pushing my computer too much these days, running heavy programs at the same time, and during the past week, it was the combination of the programs mentioned in the previous post : [ Photoshop + Illustr... ah let me just show you what I mean.

And this kept on happening every day and night, I toss and turn and keep stressing my mind, I look for peace but see I don't attain, what I need for keeps this silly game we play. Ooops, burst into song there for a bit.

Anyway, as you can see from the beautifully crafted equation above (which was done in Adobe Photoshop with the aid of a tablet and quite an outstanding amount of boredom), I was under quite a bit of stress, and I wish I can say that it was brought upon me by none other than myself, for procrastination was the key in my life this semester, but that is not the case.

I spent a good two weeks on this bloody thing, because:

I'm no good at AS3
AS3 is complicated
I'm no good at AS3

Sure, graphics, text, drawings and whatnot, I can get by. Even a little video, sound, or image editing I can try and do. But AS3 is such a bitch to work with, especially since I have little to no idea as to how the damn thing works, and had to resort to video tutorials (which were actually very helpful, and some of them were pretty funny too) and combing obscure forums for bits of code to make a scroll bar, well, scroll.

It was an interesting experience, I guess, in the end. I learnt how to code, how to scroll, how to button, and how to curse in French.

On a side note, the weather has taken a turn for the cold, wet and windy. It's very windy, it's very cold, and to top it all off, it's very raining too.

I want a Jumbo Mocha. Damn.

Adobe Creative Suite 4 : Design Premium

2009-05-18T12:57:00.001+08:00

Shit, Shit, and Other Four Letter Words

2009-05-11T03:00:00.003+08:00

Asked how I am, I could be better.
Asked what's happened, I will not answer.
Asked why not, I could not be bothered.
Asked if I'll be okay,

I don't know.

It's a lousy feeling to bring shit into someone's life, as well as my own.

There But For the Grace of God, Go I

2009-05-09T21:09:00.004+08:00

I hate that I still get stuck when I see you. Needless to say, I'm very disappointed in myself.

A Freak Like Me Just Needs Infinity

2009-05-08T02:04:00.003+08:00

Relax, take your time
Take your time, and trust in me
And you will find
Infinity

Infinity - Guru Josh Project

A little something that I've been doing. Found it fun, relaxing and interesting. It's not really called "Kartoonising", probably called rotoscoping or something, but hell I wanna call it what I want to.

What started it all

And then, I just found myself doing more and more.

More at my Flickr page: Here

I Still Have A Cupboard With Cans of Food, Filtered Water and Pictures of You

2009-05-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

Eh, My Heart Paining La

2009-04-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

And there's never any rain when you want it
A hollow little game and you've won it
Looking for a thrill, but you've done it all

Hollywood Is Not America - Ferras

Liverpool 4 - 4 Arsenal. How good was that match eh? Intense. The people I watched it with were also awesome. Hilarious comments throughout the match. We actually watched the first 10 minutes with no sound, because we could not figure out what was wrong with the tv. Hilarious shit.

I think I'm in love with the library. I've been going there a lot these past few days. Something about it lets me do my work. Such a difference, compared to doing work at home.

And I was on a roll today. Not roll like, egg roll or Spanish green tea jam tart kiwi roll, but, well.. you know. Roll. Managed to do two assignments in one night, which is saying something, as I believe in the procrastination aspect of life. A 2000 word essay, and an 8 minute edit of a documentary, all done in the space of 4 hours. Fuyoh, memang sah editor melayu. I'm not too sure of the essay though, so I'm going to look at it again tomorrow, but I think it's decent enough.

Many assignments were due right after the study break, and it was really getting to me. Clutter in the brain, clutter on the computer. Before my assignments were submitted, my desktop was a mess:

After submission:

Week is going good!

Oh! And...

Ini Bukan Yang Pertama Kalinya, Cintaku Pergi Jauh

2009-04-16T05:03:00.002+08:00

Dan kunyayikan kau lagu cinta
Seindahnya sinar mentari
Seanggunnya sinar rembulan

Cinta - Flop Poppy

I wish life can be controlled like a game

The world has gone to great lengths to conspire against me with inane feats of fuckery, such as making an idiot leave chewing gum in the dryer. Half my clothes have weird gum stains on them.

Bastard

When I Wanted Sunshine, I Got Rain

2009-04-13T18:22:00.004+08:00

Tiada puisi atau lagu
Tiada potret tiada ragu
Yang dapat ku ilham seindah mu
Nyata kau satu dalam berjuta
Wahai jelita
Kau istimewa

Istimewa - Indigo

Catamaran Sailing - April 4th 2009

It's finally raining! After a week of pure sunshine and heat. Whoo! And there are brown/orange leaves everywhere. Hahaha. It's like.. like.. brown/orange leaves everywhere!

So I'm on a week long holiday, again. Sometimes I wonder if signing up for Murdoch University is more of a summer camp than it is my degree course. Yes, the assignments and classes are there, but we have some sort of break every other week, day, whatever. Not that I'm not happy. I love this. But money flows when it's the holiday. Gah.

These three are responsible for trying to get me fat. Not that it's working.

I finally mustered up the courage to cook something else besides pasta, and hey ho it turned out okay. Hahaha. I made nasi impit (sp?) and kuah kacang. In Australia! Hahahahah! Though I have to admit all I did was put it on to boil. But ada la jugak makanan Malaysia kat sini.

"Easter makes no sense. Why rabbits giving eggs to celebrate Jesus dying? When I die, I want a giant cat giving out chicken wings" - Kyle Durkin

Exactly. Why indeed?

Personally, I'd much rather have pink midget goats serving green tea.

It's a Mad World

2009-04-01T13:31:00.006+08:00

How the fuck?

Click to see a bigger version, and to read the article

Bollocks, I tell you. What's the world coming to? I mean, I'm not against gays or whatnot, but who are we to say that the dolphin is gay? Just because it's pink? Scientists study the behavioural patterns of the fella and say he's gay, but I think it's because they have that preconception in mind, so whatever he does strengthens such thoughts.

Gosh. The world is going mad.

And to Mr. Lim Kin Meng, this one's for you. I can't believe you have the balls to play a trick on me on April's Fool, and I can't believe I had the lack of wit to realise it. Fuckin Hell. Payback! Nyahaha. But I'll just leave this up for a day or two. Or week. Depends ;)

eman says: (01:41:24) save your tears for when you seeme

k i n z says: (01:41:33) hahaha woahha
k i n z says: (01:41:33) ahah
k i n z says: (01:41:36) that line so cool wan?
k i n z says: (01:41:37) ahha
k i n z says: (01:41:45) fark man i got nostrils hair growing out of my nose...

eman says: (01:41:49) DUH

k i n z says: (01:41:50) farkk.. shud i trim it?

eman says: (01:41:55) then what, your arse ar nostril hair

k i n z says: (01:42:01) or shud i stretch my tongue to see if i can reach it?

eman says: (01:42:06) OK this is going onto my blog
eman says: (01:42:09) NYAHAHHAHAHHAHA

k i n z says: (01:42:11) oh farkiu

Sekian, terima kasih.

I Want to Take You Far, From the Cynics in This Town, and Kiss You on the Mouth

2009-03-31T21:58:00.004+08:00

We'll cut out bodies free, from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony.
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)

Brand New Colony - The Postal Service

"We won't be slicing things up in Photoshop because the previous class just fucked everything up" - Mark Cypher, Web Design Lecturer

Loads of apps in the works

I've been on and off for the past few weeks with my work, and frankly this scares the shit out of me. I think I'm a little behind on Web Design work (if not a lot, gah!), and that's one of the last subjects I ever thought I could be lagging in. Always thought Doco was the one that would give me problems.

I made a couple of calls to some guys back home, asking how they were, and also asking for some favours. Hahaha. Even here I can still ask for favours. Hopefully things pan out good, and I can get what I want, so that my grades will be in tune with what I'm feeling.

Ayah called via skype yesterday, and we talked quite a bit, though his original intention for calling was to ask a few things about uni and my acceptance into it, i.e: letters, receipts, etc. It's nice to hear his voice again, as well as Mum's, and it was good to see Snowball after so long. I really miss you guys ( Lisa too, but well, just a tad :P )

Was also reminded to:

Call Malaysian Embassy to ask re: Passport certifying
Buy rock candy
Buy 2 hoodies for Lisa

Oh, and I think I'm down with a slight case of flu/fever. I spent most of yesterday and today sleeping when not in class. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be fit as a fiddle again. If not I'll be straining over the toilet again, like last time:

Ack! The painnn!

Post-its FTW :D

ROFL!

2009-03-23T23:50:00.002+08:00

kinmeng says: (00:49:13)
da,m [wper o te;; ua

eman . transcending retardation of the mind says: (00:49:20)
what the fuck is that

eman . transcending retardation of the mind says: (00:49:24)
da,m [wper o te;; ua

eman . transcending retardation of the mind says: (00:49:26)
WTF

kinmeng says: (00:49:28)
*damn power it ell ya

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

If He Wants to Rock, He Rocks. If He Wants to Roll, He Rolls.

2009-03-22T21:30:00.004+08:00

If he wants to stay he stays.
If he wants to go he goes.
He doesn't care how he gets there,
Long as he gets somewhere he knows.

Rock n Roll - Eric Hutchinson

First off, thanks for the feedback re: the site designs. Mostly tallied with what I felt, so that's good, on my side of the court.

Today has been pretty rotten in so many aspects it's not funny, snag after snag happened. Bah! It felt like the world was against me. Took me a while to calm down, and sleep helped a lot.

But anyway, my family came to visit me here, for about 5 days, and I hope they had fun, even if I was a little surly and cynical at times. I did enjoy the company, just that it took some getting used to, especially after a couple of months of not seeing them. They're flying off at about 12 midnight, I think, so yeah, safe flight! See you guys soon.

Whilst they were here, we went to a few places, though I wasn't keen on some places. One place that I really enjoyed was the Caversham Wildlife Park. That's where we had the most fun, I believe (aside from them spending money shopping, I think).

So! Photos galore! Hahahah. And I really do mean photos galore.

More photos should be available on Lisa's blog when she gets back, or on facebook, one of them, depending on her mood. And tomorrow I start uni again! Wheeee! Finally, some studying. Hahahaha

PS: Sorry for the huge amount of photos :P

Somebody Calls You, and You Answer Quite Slowly. A Girl With Kaleidoscope Eyes

2009-03-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

Newspaper taxis appear on the shore,
Waiting to take you away.
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds,
And you're gone.

Lucy In the Sky With Diamonds - Bono

Caww!

Feed Me!

My family came erm, sideways, sorta, to Australia (sideways, since I don't think it's really down, or up) to visit me! Happiness, is a warm gun, bang bang shoot shoot. Hahahaha. Lisa screamed when she saw me, which shocked me, but I was happy nevertheless. Atuf came along too.

I spent yesterday with them, catching up and talking about mushrooms (I can't get enough of them), and slept at their place. Also watched TV till late, was watching some Czech/Russian/Croatian movie, not sure which. It was interesting. Then woke up, headed back to my place to unload stuff that my parents brought from home (Maggi kari, oh my god, heaven! Hahaha. I can't find maggi kari here) and slept some more. Whoa it felt good.

Woke up, did some laundry, and had lunch while watching Across the Universe. Which got a lot of approvals from the people who dropped by. Wheee! Hahahaha.

Thought this was cool, can see the reflection of the monitor in the reflection of the monitor in the reflection of the monitor in the yada yada yada hahahaha

But anyway. I need some help, I've to design a website for some architectural landscaping thing company, and I've to come up with design compositions/concepts for it. So I've come up with 4, so far, and it's not as easy as it looks, taking into consideration the layout of the page and user-friendliness and whatnot. So yeah, pick one, or tell me which one can be improved. Here, MSN, text, whatever, I need feedback before I propose this to my lecturer.

Numbered 1,2,3 and 4 respectively.

Aside from that, all's well, and ends well. I've met someone who drives me crazy, in a bad yet good way. Interesting. Hmmmmm.

I want to, I want to be someone else or I'll explode..
Floating upon this surface for the birds,
The birds,
The birds.

Talk Show Host - Radiohead

We Go Out In Stormy Weather, We Rarely Practice Discern

2009-03-14T14:54:00.005+08:00

And that's the way we get by
That's the way we get by

The Way We Get By - Spoon

Moon shot as requested by Fat

Here I am, sitting in front of yet another computer, cracking my brain to try make this an interesting post. I've quite a lot to write (or in this case, type) about, but I can't decide how to start, how to fill in the middle, or how to end. Hahaha. I think I've lost a lot of my wit and writing (typing) ability over the past year. Not that I had much to begin with anyway.

So. Past week has been somewhat mild to pretty damn good up till now. The week started slowly, as Mondays always do, with class and class and more class. I watched a movie on suicide, recommended by Ashlea, and it really depressed me. She thought it'd help by inspiring me to proceed with my short film idea, and in a way it did. But it really depressed me as well., more because it was about this nice girl who killed herself, not because I somewhat felt related to the movie. Movie is called "2:37". Watch it, it might be of some kind of help.

We watched an interesting documentary on Wednesday, it was titled "Choice Funerals" I believe. The first part of it was so sad, as it was about the death of a baby, and how the parents decided to carry out the funeral. The combination of the videos, images and music was enough to make me tear. Quite a lot too. Hahahah. Thank god the lights were switched off.

And I've been reading quite a lot of story books, mostly to do with murders and crime. Went through five books already, in the space of a month, which I guess isn't too slow.

So by now you must be wondering to yourselves, "What the hell, this kid's obsessed with death." In a way, I am. I've this somewhat morbid fascination with death, how people die, and whatever else. It's kinda creepy at times, but hey, it floats my boat, my imagination really gets fuelled by it, and I think I work better after a good movie or story.

We get high in backseats of cars

Speaking of work, I've got two assignments due pretty soon, one due on Monday. It's a video editing assignment, so it should be right up my alley, right? Well, in a way, it is. I managed to cut it up and piece it together pretty quickly. The only factor that's holding me back is the laggy playback. I don't know if it is the fault of Adobe Premier Pro (Which sucks, horrendously) or if the computer is not powerful enough. That, and the frequent crashes keep getting on my nerves.

Premier Pro is as stable as an upside-down pyramid on an egg in the middle of an earthquake!

We break into mobile homes

How the hell am I supposed to work with sub-par equipment? But, fortunately, my patience lasted, and I finished it. Took two non-consecutive days, but I'm happy with the result. I just hope my lecturer is too. And the song I chose to use for this assignment is "The Way We Get By", so that explains the title of the post, kan?

The other assignment? I'll write more about it when I'm nearly or completely finished. I don't want to think about it much. It requires hours in front of the computer, creativity and brainpower. All of which needs me to be in the mood to do, so yeah. When I'm done. Ahhh!

Stop. I want you to.

And here's something to laugh at. Originally meant to cheer Yvonne up ;)

I'd Pluck The Moon From The Sky, Just To See You Smile

2009-03-01T14:36:00.002+08:00

Kau ku cinta
Engkaulah yg ku puja
Tertunggu selama ini takku jumpa
Dengan mu ku dilamun indah
Ku harap cinta akan tiba di hati kita

Akan Tiba - Amylea

I'm so tired. Hahaha. And I've turned 12 shades darker, if that's possible. Spent quite some time under the sun yesterday. Met up with Weng Fatt and some of his friends at Scarborough beach (which inherently takes about an hour to get to from where I stay). Huge beach, quite nice, and generally what a beach would be like.

Weng is gay. Won't jump properly

Colour difference between my sun-exposed skin and non-sun-exposed skin is somewhat like that. Well, maybe not that drastic. But still.

They had some fun in the water, but I didn't get in. Didn't bring extra clothes, plus I didn't feel like going into the water. Woke up with a pretty horrible headache and stuff. After that I went to bed early. Hahaha. Got back at about, um, 4-ish, close to 5, and had a bath, some food, and zonked out pretty much for the rest of the night, well into today. Weny called at about midnight, and it was a pretty funny conversation, even if I was half-asleep.

Weny: Hey, eman, what're you doing now
Me: *In a daze and mumbling* Sleeping...
Weny: Haha. What the heck? So early?!
Me: Tired laaa..
Weny: Ok, so tomorrow meet up at 12 yeah?
Me: 12.30 la. Takut takleh bangun

Hahaha. Well, I found it funny. Humour level in this is very subjective ;)

So today met up with Weng, Weny and his friend, and we had lunch in the city. Caught up, chatted and what have you. Then masa nak balik I spent a good 15 minutes walking aimlessly around looking at things, and almost got lost. Haha. Had to stop and ask someone where the train station was.

I also found out yesterday that I've been the biggest stupid fool in the universe. Hahaha. Gila bodoh. I've been texting some non-existent number in the belief that it was someone. Turns out that I accidentally added an extra number 2 to the end of the number, and saved it. No wonder I haven't been getting replies. Ceh! I can't believe it took me until now to figure out that your number was wrong. Bloody hell.

I've got a cupboard with cans of food,
filtered water, and pictures of you
and I'm not coming out until this is all over.
And I'm looking through the glass
Where the light bends at the cracks
And I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
Pretending the echoes belong to someone
Someone I used to know

We Will Become Silhouettes - The Postal Service

Walaupun Jauh, Kau Dekat Di Hati

2009-02-23T22:57:00.005+08:00

Kutatap berseri berwarna hijau
Yang menawan sanubari

Aurora - Estranged

Photography ain't dead yet, baby! So I'm keeping true to Joyce's words, I'm keeping it alive.

*This entry will be peppered with photos ;)

Web design was fun today, I'm loving the lecturers here. We had this pie-chart detailing the percentage of work put in by a web designer, and only 15% of web-designing is actual designing. He went on to point out that roughly 60% of the time we'll spend trying to figure out how to "get the bastard to work with Internet Fucking Explorer". Hahahah!

Boredom + photobooth = :D

Tried to take some bird photos. They're some rare species apparently. God knows what they're called though.

Skyping with the family! :D
Just now there were a bunch of people playing with fire in my area, so I grabbed my camera and went to see what they were up to. They were, um, I'm not sure of the term, "Fire-Spinners"? Whatever, they were twirling balls and a staff (as in stick, not people) on fire. Pretty damn cool. So yeah, got a few photos. Some better than others. I'll only put up a few though, as they're the ones that are really aesthetically good looking.

Then me dad decided to drop me a call on Skype, and it turned out that the whole family (the ones in PJ, at least) were at my place for some dessert, so yeah, we caught up. Had a fun time, chatting and talking nonsense. Managed to see Snowball (rindu gila, she's been in my life for a damn long time)

So yeah, as I was saying, photography ain't dead for me. Haha. Today was one of the few times I went out with my camera, and I had fun. Kept getting asked about the price of the thing, which I'm always reluctant to say, so I just said "a lot". Hahah. But they were happy with the photos, and that's what matters, aye ;)

Ironically, at the end of the night, we had our umpteenth fire-alarm thingy go off. Bet the firefigthers make a shitload of money, as flat residents get fined $1800 per false alarm. Imagine that. I'd hate to cause a false one, let alone a real one.

So yeah, today's been a real great day. I also found out a few things that really brought a smile to my face, and I can't wait for it to happen. I must say though, this is way earlier than I planned to blog. Thought I'd wait a few days, maybe a week, but I'm just so happy and whoopee! Hahaha

Ku petik bintang, untuk kau simpan
Cahayanya tenang, berikan kau perlindungan
Sebagai pengingat teman, juga sebagai jawapan
Semua tantangan

Melompat Lebih Tinggi - Sheila On 7

Kau Terindah, Masih Ada, Yang Tercantik

2009-02-22T02:23:00.002+08:00

Segala yang ku pasti akan aku capai tuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cinta ku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hati mu
Mengingkari dalaman akal mu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu,
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yg terang

Hatiku mahu mu
Rupa mu
Masih, masih, masih, masih...

Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu Kamu

Itu Kamu - Estranged

I'd bend over backwards for you

Befitting, really, the song choice. I enjoyed the first Live Show of OIAM3, even if I watched it in the confines of my room on my computer screen. The opening and ending song, fucking brought goosebumps to me, though it could be emotional attachment I have to it. But I have to say, it touched me beyond belief. Hahah. Shit I'm such a sap. But I know the hard work that was put in to make it, so I appreciate everything of the show, even if the audioman screwed up (Hahahah! You can't replace meeee! :P)

Good job, guys, on the first live show!

So tonight, I hung out with a few friends, and we had the time of our lives trying to find out what the capital of some certain country is. We went round and round and round just talking random countries. Then we went and watched the Arsenal match, and I would've stayed for the Man Utd match, but was too knackered. Btw, I'm in love with the British accent! Oh my god! I'm such a moppet. Hahahaha

Then I met a few friends at the staircase near my flat, and we were just chatting, and I was asked my age. They all thought I was bleeding 16 or something, though they reasoned that since I was in uni, I must be around 18, so they guess I was 18. Whoa. I look that young? Hahaha. Pros and cons come with it I guess, and when I told them I was 20 going on 21, they were like, "No way! You look so young!" Haha. Mmmmm..

And so the night ends with me doing the dishes that I promised to do, and yeah. Tomorrow, I might shoot a basketball game, and go to the beach. Depends on when I wake up, I guess. Till then,

Taa!

Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya...

And I Don't Need You, And Guess What

2009-02-19T19:09:00.005+08:00

I'm havin' more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you
Tonight...
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So...
So what!
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight!

So What - Pink

Past few days were interesting. Found out that I'd be playing around with shooting and editing, amongst other things, for my Intro to Screen and Sound Production, and my Documentary classes. Wheee! I think it's meant to be, I'm a production kid. One thing though, they're using Adobe Premier Pro, which is slightly different to FCP, but whatever. I can adept, and I'll be rocking the edit suites!

Btw, the song really reminds me of Nicole, Joyce and Anusha jumping around in the edit suite. Hahahah. Was a fun sight.

Went out with Andrew a.k.a Freakass again last night, since he was leaving for Malaysia already, so we hung out at Fast Eds, and I think I'm in love with the mushrooms there. Gah! Boleh makan non-stop (which is very dangerous as the bill can run up very fast). Hahah. But so far, I'm surviving on food and stuff. Haven't been overspending.. much. Books, still yet to buy, looking for some options.

My flat is on the right -->

I'm starting to like my little village, and the people here. There's the right amount of freedom and responsibilities to let me live. I'm free to do whatever I want, yet there are responsibilities to keep me from flying too high. Hahah. But it's all fun, even the laundry and dish-washing. Flat-mates are awesome people too.

I've yet to really walk around with the camera, and today was just some small walking, since I had to meet up with some people. So yeah, it'll take time, but I'll bring photography back. It ain't gone, babe ;)

You weren't there
You never were
You want it all
But that's not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You we're there
You let me fall

So what?
I'm still a rockstar!

Mimpi Dan Harapan, Bagai Duri Yang Mencengkam

2009-02-16T02:02:00.002+08:00

Sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
Ku harus mencuba
Bila lagi desak hatiku bila lagi
Aku harus berani

Lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
Mengatur langkah ku terus mendaki
Cita-citaku
Di mercu

Hanya Di Mercu - Ayu OIAM2

I was outside, waiting for Andrew a.k.a Freakass to fetch me and go out, and I couldn't help but look at the stars up in the sky, and think of you, and how your smile always seem to light up your eyes, or how that impish grin can bring so much joy to a situation, how your laughter seems to brighten up a room, and how your eyes captivate me.

I sound like a fool desperately in love, so I guess that must be it, though I'm not sure if it's love or mere infatuation. All I know is I can't stop thinking of you.

Went out to meet Weng Fatt at Curtin today, first time on the bus and thank god I got it right, so we went to Makan-makan, and chatted and caught up, and set Sunday for us to go see some sights with some friends. Yay! Hahaha. Adala kaki Malaysia kat sini, at least.

And also we went out, me, Andrew and his friend, Faizal ( sp? ) at night, and met up with some of his other friends, and we had some great fun, and tomorrow we're probably going out again :D

Tomorrow is also the day my classes start, so whoooo! Nervous, but looking forward to it as well, so yeah. I can't wait for classes to start, so that I have something to do, and I'm also contemplating on buying a guitar, to maybe pass the time, learn to play the damned thing. Maybe when I get back I can serenade you. Mmmmm, that'd be interesting.

Can't wait, I'm anticipating the Japanese dinner. Hahaha.

My supplements while in Perth

Blank, Empty

2009-02-13T22:43:00.001+08:00

As I lie down on my bed,
And look up at the ceiling,
Thoughts of you go through my head,
Doing nothing to ease this feeling.

Barely a week and my desk is already a real mess

Despite all the positives that's been happening, I find myself struggling to justify coming here now and then. Maybe it's the lack of activity, since classes haven't started, and maybe it's because I'm not used to the life here yet, the people around me, and the way things work.

I know I can pull through though, and I know I can excel, and the little things help, though I never thought they would. I know that no matter how horrible I feel when I wake up, one look at my desk, one glance at the wallpaper of my desktop, one glimpse of those eyes, and my day will start out right.

Doesn't mean it'll end right, though. I went to bed with a busted lip from playing football. Hahaha.

Lots of sand outside, damn
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

The Show - Lenka

Tonight Will Be The Night That I Will Fall For You, Over Again

2009-02-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

Don't make me change my mind.

Or I won't live to see another day,
I swear it's true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
You're impossible to find.

Fall For You (Acoustic) - Secondhand Serenade

One day were gonna get so high

First of, the acoustic version of the song is awesome. Though a little fast, it still manages to have that, I don't know how to describe, that acoustic feeling when you listen to a song. I can listen to it for hours on end, and really appreciate the lyrics, even if it gets repetitive.

So anyway, I'm here in Perth, Australia. Journey here wasn't too bad, flight was pretty dull, though the sending off was amazing, thanks to the bunch of people that turned up, and especially to that one particular one. I'm going to miss you guys a lot, and you, Lisa, and also Mum. Place takes some getting used to, and I think I can do that pretty quick. Met a few people already, and some familiar faces too.

So I've settled some things, but still need to settle other things, and that's only happening on Monday as they don't work on Saturdays and Sundays, so yeah. Been going around getting what I need to get, and I haven't yet stayed in my room, I'm bunking with my dad for the time being, since I still need to get some stuff, but tomorrow onwards I'll be in my room. So whoopee.

Perth City

Not sure when I'll next update this, but it should be pretty interesting, next time round. Until then, taa!

There's something in the air tonight
A feeling that you have that could change your life
There's something burning up inside
I reach out for you and our hearts collide

With hearts on fire I reach out to you tonight

Hearts on Fire - Cut Copy

All My Bags Are Packed, I'm Ready To Go

2009-01-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn,
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn,
Already I'm so lonesome I could die.

Leaving On A Jet Plane

The sunrise, from the rooftop of Sri Pentas. One of those late days when we stayed overnight.

So I'm officially done with my work at 8tv, with One In A Million Season 3, with my Episode 3. I have to say I've had the time of my life while working, and I'm going to really miss it, especially the zany bunch of people that I was working with.

They made the long hours fly by, they made the job fun, entertaining, and they pulled me up when I was going down with work and life. They opened my eyes, to see things that I haven't seen before, to see things in a different light, and made me a better person, in a sense. I know I can be better, but they are helping me along.

They taught me life as I've never been taught, they advised me on things that I over-thought, they accepted me for who I am, regardless of what I've done, or what I'll be doing. They never judged, they never expected much (though that I think might be a little presumptuous of me, as I think they expected quite a fair bit when they tossed me Ep 3), they loved me as I am, and I'll miss all of that. Their mentality, their outlook of life, their humour, their quirks, they're a whole bunch of people for whom I'd lay my life down to help.

My desk, throughout the grueling but fun few months of work. I wouldn't trade the experience for anything.

They couldn't care less if I suddenly went off the map, because at the end of the day they know I'll come back, if asked, just like I did for this.

So, I've a week before D-day, and I'm trying to make the most out of it, and so far it's been going pretty well. Some faces I've yet to see, some faces I still want to see again and again until I leave, and some faces, well, I could do without, but I'll still see.

My baby, my work, my episode.

So kiss me, and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.

I Wanna Love You, And Treat You Right

2009-01-18T03:38:00.002+08:00

I wanna love you every day and every night.
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads.
We'll share the shelter of my single bed.
We'll share the same room, yeah!

Is This Love - Bob Marley

From last year, till now, and still incomplete. Wowee

I'm going to be bloody fucking busy till the 24th of January, because that's when I have to submit my episode out for censorship, so yeah, gotta get it going by then. Hopefully I make it.

So, the above paragraph is a disclaimer in case anyone asks me out, and I say I cannot make it. There's a time for work, there's a time for life, unfortunately now is my time to really, really work.

I have to say, though, I wouldn't trade this work for much, if anything, at all. So yeah, to those that tak nampak my batang hidung for a while, I apologize again. I chose this, and yes I sold my soul to the devil, but that's my choice, so i'm sticking with it.

Got a lot of expectations to meet, and I'm so afraid of disappointing. Gah!

Maybe I've Got Something To Say, Maybe I've Got Something To Say

2009-01-02T02:27:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah, when I needed you to stay,
You drove your car the other way.
And oh me,
Don't you worry about me.
I got a pocket full of wisdom up my sleeve,
And the night is young.

The Night Is Young - Howling Bells

Wish I did. Maybe I do. But not yet. I've got other things to think about at the moment.

It Comes And Goes, And I Have No Control

2008-12-26T05:36:00.004+08:00

Some days I wanna, and some days I don't.
Sometimes I can feel it, and suddenly it's gone.
Some days I can tell you the truth, and some days I just don't.
Only a change of mood, sun goes down, someone says something to quick or to soon.
A touch not made, one made to late, armies of words can not hope to contain.

It Comes and It Goes - Dido

First of, I'm sorry for neglecting this space for quite some time. I've been caught up in work, and to be frank, that's what is mostly on my mind, ever since I started. I've been neglecting more than just this space, I've been neglecting my life, my family, my friends. It's not something that I do purposely, it's just that for now, my priority seems to be getting the job done.

Second, a very happy christmas to those that celebrate it, and to those who don't, well, a happy new year then. This year things were slightly (well, not really slightly, more like extremely actually) different compared to previous years, but it was an experience that I'm sure I'd be glad I had in times to come. And so it is.

I'm now an editor, and I'm editing an episode of OIAM3, so it's been eating into my life ever since I was given the task. Even before that, I was absorbed with the production, going to locations to shoot and help out. This is what has been eating up my time, though I admit I could have made time for my life. But again, it's just that work is on my mind most of the time.

It's a sad thing to need to be told to meet with friends, and unfortunately I've stooped low to that level. I mean, I don't purposely choose not to go out with you guys, it's just that I seem to be unable to put much in front of my work, in terms of priority. I try to make time, and I did, though not as often as you guys would've like. In that sense, I'm very sorry.

I missed a few Christmas gatherings, both by friends from college and also friends from work, all because of the episode. I didn't do it without a heavy heart, but the reluctance to go and not try to complete my edit was there. I don't blame the episode, in fact I don't blame anything, save maybe for myself for getting caught up in work, but then again, from one point of view, that could be seen as passion, in a sense. Production is in my blood.

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Aku Mau - Once

But It's Just The Price I Pay

2008-12-13T08:56:00.000+08:00

Bam

Here It Goes Again

2008-12-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

I'm drop-dead sick now. Shit.

Coming Out of My Cage

2008-12-10T03:42:00.003+08:00

Love is completely wasted by me
but I can't help it
I'm like a broken tap;
I give and give and give and give
but I can't get anything back
People don't keep broken taps,
they fix them or plug them,
seal them shut.
I wish I knew better,
but all I can say is

I'm foolish

and

I suck

*Credits to Lisa for the inspiration

Gone Be The Birds When They Don't Want To Sing

2008-12-09T04:17:00.006+08:00

You see yourself in the mirror and you
Feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you're afraid to open up your soul coz you
Don't really know, don't really know who is
The person that's deep within
Coz you're content with just being the name brand band
And ya fail to see that its trivial,
Insignificant, you addicted to material.

Gone Going - The Black Eyed Peas

There's a saying that goes: "The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference." I guess there's no greater insult than to be subject to indifference. Certainly none that I know of, anyway.

There's also a saying that goes: "It takes two to tango." In this sense, I might've been dancing alone in the dark all this while, for all I know. The light that was there might've been the glow of hope and imagination, all that was keeping this fantasy, this dream, alive.

But with it being that, a dream, I don't think I'd let the glow extinguish anytime soon. Sure, I'd move along, but hey it will still be there. I'm a sentimental fella in that sense, I hold on to things that I feel are dear to me, even if it's meaningless to others. For what is there to live for when there's no dream, no goal, no nothing to at least try to look forward to, or to hold on to?

Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.
- Friedrich Nietzsche

Anyway enough of this, I've got some things to do, some things to regret doing, some things to break, and some things to mend. Some life I have, eh? Hahaha

*Ps: kinz, your kiddo photos should be up in the next post. I don't feel like it fits in this one ;)

*Pps: How sucky is this that every other post has something to do with me having trouble in life? I mean, you must be wondering what kind of fucked up life I'm living, no? And to tell you the truth, I have no clue as to where my life is heading. Down the drain, for all I know and care.

Wish I was a turtle. FTW.

Oh, Really? Well Here's A News Flash For You

2008-12-03T00:14:00.004+08:00

Keep the lights on outside my window, comforts trying to sneak in.
In my dream I'm knee deep in corn,
dreaming of falling asleep next to you.
Sunshine and holes in my plan to settle down and marry,
But I guess we're all still young.

But don't you want somebody to hold?

No Surprise - Lightspeed Champion

I generally take insults quite well, but there are limits to kindness, you know. Like Zeb said to me today: "There has to be a day when you just feel like being mean, after being so nice to everyone and everything". I agreed, cause I think we have something very powerful in us in common. We tend to generally be nice to people too much sometimes. I guess we care about not hurting other people's feelings.

I mean, we do say stuff like, "Next time I see the fucker I'm going to shout at him, make him cry, fuck!" and such, but we never actually do it, though Zeb can do it, since he sort of has the authority to do so, especially with a good cause. I'm just some boy, so I usually just keep it in, and not do anything.

But everything has a breaking point. Mine's been poked a little, over the past few days, week or so.

All I can say is:

I may not have nice skin, but unlike you, I don't need it because I do my work well. The only job you'll ever be doing is a fucking blowjob for a donkey when that face of yours fucks off in a few years time.

Wish I said it to your face, dumbfuck. You think I want to be like this?

The contestants were horrendous

*Kiedd singing "You Raise Me Up" while waiting for a contestant*
Sunil : That's a gay song la bro.
Kiedd : Really?
*Sunil sings the chorus*
Sunil : See? You raise me up. How can that be not gay?
*Sunil continues singing*
Kiedd : Eh, I nak gi toilet kejap.
Sunil : Hey, bro, it can't be that good

Hahahahahah! If you don't get the humour, then god bless your clean head. Tapi ingat, siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, bercakap bohong lama-lama mencuri.

I don't think I'll write about a lot of stuff. Just needed to express the emotional lyrics at the top, the rant in the middle, and the comedy at the end. So some photos from our location.

Walked a lot in front of the contestants just to spur them on. Hahahah!

Kasut merah

Our quotes of the day table

Deck no. 1 - Master

Deck No. 2 - ISO

And my job for the main judging, amongst other things.

So that's a wrap for a while. Still have a nice session of work to look forward to. Sayang sekarang ni sedikit emo. Aih.

I Hope It's Just Your Laugh That Is Infectious

2008-11-23T08:54:00.006+08:00

Good morning
You woke up
Got dressed up
Hair messed up

Good Morning - Sparks

Wake Up, Sunshine

I'm sure I'm going to be gone after this, since I haven't slept yet. Hahaha. Was up reading, listening to music and checking out stuff. Then at around 5.30 a.m. I checked Facebook and saw that Mel was talking about breakfast and sunrises, so I thought I'd give her a buzz. Buk bak buk bak, we agreed to have breakfast.

Can you see me?

Headed on to her place at around 6.10 and we went to McD to have some breakfast, and also figure out where to catch the sunrise, if possible. Drove around after breakfast and ended up on the rooftop carpark of Carrefour, and it was pretty interesting up there. View was quite nice. And I think I wouldn't mind going up there and having some sort of photoshoot.

Fly me to the moon

Here comes the sun

Sorry for not having pictures of me. Hahaha. I was the one with the camera, and you all know how camera-shy I am ;)

We gotta install microwave ovens
Custom kitchen deliveries
We gotta move these refrigerators
We gotta move these colour TV's

Money For Nothing - Dire Straits

I Know That You're Very Nice, Never Ever Tell Me Lies

2008-11-22T00:34:00.006+08:00

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Friday I'm In Love - The Cure

Sibuk punya perempuan

Today was a very good day! Hahaha. I woke up and Kin Meng asked me if I wanted to hang out with him, Terence, Sabrina and Sook Teng at 1u. So I said okay, but after my prayers. And so I met up with them and it felt good seeing them. We walked around a bit, then went to some place beside the river and sat and chatted, catching up a little, and talking bullshit most of the time.

Then we decided to meet up again later at night, and so we finally decided on Laundry at round dinner time. Met up there (Karl Son joined us) and had some (very) expensive food and a few drinks, and talked some more. Laughing at this and that.

Sabrina: Eh, Eman, I think I'm going crazy. I think Ronaldo is cute.
Me: Ohhhkayyy. Not bad la actually.
Terence: Eh come on she thinks Bacary Sagna is cute la. Fucking Aliens versus Predator weh!
*I burst out laughing*

At around 11 we decided to head to SS2 and continue there, since nak cheaper environment la kan. Hahahah. Ended up at um, I have no idea what the place is called, but the bunch of stalls in front of the SS2 Police Station. There we were joined by more people, and was quite fun just sitting and talking. Had to leave early a little, as I had to drop Terence home at 12, so yeah.

Had my camera with me, but didn't take many photos. Hahaha. How sad is that? But yeah, I think there's gonna be ample time to do that.

Kin Meng : Heh heh heh *horny look*

Terence is the unsuspecting victim

Kin Meng : Let me snap youuuu!
Terence : Eh, no! Eman, save me!

You're next. Mmmhmmm

Idiot took the camera and fooled around with it whilst I was driving. Hahah

Premature end to a night, but I've got to say I was happily satisfied :D

*PS: Much thanks to Terence for the food and drinks!

A movie still-photograph
Through our martyrs eyes I can see
I've seen the best of love
The best of hate
The best reward is earned
And I've paid for every single word
I've ever said

Chase This Light - Jimmy Eat World

You Think This Too Eventually Will Pass

2008-11-20T02:57:00.006+08:00

If this is love
Then I don't wanna know what isn't
I won't say another (no, no) word
If this is love (ooh ooh)
Then I'm about to hit on this
Were both going to get hurt if this is love

If This Is Love - The Saturdays

See-saw, rollercoaster,
Hee-haw, I hate my little toaster.
We saw an emo little monster,
But realized it was me in the mirror.

Life's been like that. Hahaha. Baru what, tak sampai 24 hours since the previous post, and this pops up? Sigh. What's the world coming to, then, eh?

Anyway, I woke up late today, at 11 am actually. Buk-bak-duk-chak, went to the office at 11.30. Reached there, and waited for a while, then went down for breakfast / lunch with the rest. Hahaha. No wonder I love work. So yeah, then later on I was told that I was to come up with a 20-30 second promo for One In A Million. Wheet! Bestnyer, so wish me luck on that. Hopefully I can live up to their (apparently very high) expectations.

"That's the bad thing about leaving on a high, you have to come back on a high too." - Howie

Spent most of my time in the office reading, actually. I was quite absorbed in my book. Managed to get 400 pages done, which is essentially one book, though this particular one has over a thousand. Then I got a duster thrown at me because of a smart-ass remark. Hahahaha. Funny shit, actually.

Joyce was supposed to digitize some tapes, so she was looking for a firewire port to plug in the deck, but couldn't find any free hole. Then she asked Shiva to help. The following dialogue ensued:

Joyce : Shiva, can help ar? Takde lobang la for this cable.
Shiva : The back of the Mac?
Joyce : Full lah.
Shiva : Let me see.
*Shiva proceeds to crawl down and look behind the Mac, and plugged in the cable into a port.*
Joyce : Eh, I thought penuh?
Shiva : Got one lah, I cabut another cable. Tu tak pakai.
Joyce : Oh, thanks.
Me : Joyce, leave it to Shiva to find a hole in the back la.
*I burst out in laughter*
*Shiva proceeds to chuck the whiteboard duster at me*

Crazy Indian fella! Hahahahahaha! :P Was all in jest, though.

Then today we celebrated Zeb's birthday. Fuish tunggu pukul 12. Hung out at some mamak at Centre point until round 11-ish, then we headed on to Long Bar. Lepak, talked and all that guff, then suddenly "Happy Birthday" played over the sound system. And Zeb was surprised. Wheeee! Pictures and shouts and laughs aplenty.

Gambars!

Zeb and his present :D

Step 1 : Blow candles.

Step 2 : Cut cake.

Step 3 : Jaga kau, kek ni nak kena your face!

Nah! Hahahaha!

*We were at the foosball table, Shiva and I on one side, Kiedd and Lea on the other*
Kiedd : So macam mana team?
Me : Me and Shiva satu team, korang satu team la.
Kiedd : Okay.
Shiva : Where you wanna play? Attack?
Me : Takpe, I main belakang.
*We all looked at each other for an awkward moment, and burst out laughing*
Kiedd : Alamak, apa benda ni main belakang? Ish.

Gosh, what a night of bullshit and laughs. Hahahaha.

"And so, I love you. What else counts in this world, one might wonder."

Don't Give Up, You're Not Beaten Yet. Don't Give Up, I Know You Can Make It Good

2008-11-18T01:06:00.007+08:00

I wait alone, she does the same,
Made up my mind to end this game,
But when it gets to half past two,
I feel the pain of missing you

Can He Find Another One - Double Discovery

Right down the middle, aye

Woke up considerably early considering I slept very late (8 am, yeah wtf? Was absorbed with It), and went to check up on Clare and the kindergarten photography thingy. Settled that and headed over to the Curve to lepak with Ginger for a while, waiting for the time to pass to fetch Lisa from class. Already planned with Kinz to take some photos today actually, though the pig was sleeping still at 3 pm (Pundek! Hahahah).

So headed to his house round 5.30, since the weather looked pretty decent (actually more decent for running than photography, but whack only la kan?). Ended up at Lake Gardens, and I let him play with my macro thing. I just wandered around with the pervert lens and snapped flowers. Oh so boring. Hahaha. But hey ho la di da it was really quite interesting. Experimented a little, somewhat, I guess. Oooh! Lots of mosquito bites too, those blood-sucking buggers from hell (Kinz has some macros of them on his feet. Tengok la, maybe he'll post them up on his blog)

So yeah, pictures. I think the shallow dof thing is a phase, and someday will be overused kot. But until then, bear with me.

There was this girl who was drawing stuff. Takde kerja betul.

And there was this guy who was stalking bugs. Weird kind of fetishism? Hmmm

And I just came back from futsal, actually. Was a very fun game, and it's been quite a while since I last played. Tired, exhausted, but sedated and satisfied.

Though Damien Rice and his O album didn't help on the way back. Hahaha.

Shuk: Korang pernah hisap rokok Saad tak?
Zeb: Tak, kenape?
Shuk: Jangan. Cheapest ass cigarettes, and rasa macam hisap kote gajah.
Us: *Laugh like shit*
Shuk: Shiva, ko pernah hisap rokok Saad?
Shiva (Who just came to join us): Tak.
Shuk: Don't. Tastes like donkey dick sial.

Hahahahah! I can't wait for work to begin. Call time tomorrow : 2 pm. Wheet!

Emo? Moi? C'est impossible

2008-11-17T07:39:00.003+08:00

Doing all I can do, just to be close to you.
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the ass
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.

Heartbeat - Scouting For Girls

Smiles open more doors, or so I'm told

Hey, yeah I'm okay. Of course I am. I'd like to think that no matter how hard the fall, I'll come back up. Yeah, battered, bruised and broken, but still, back up again. I've a whole life ahead to look forward to, and the challenges and shtuff (shit / stuff) that I'm going to go through, well, I think I can manage, with my head held high.

Got myself a book to help ease things, actually. Though I think the book choice is a little weird. But hey, I've always wanted to read It. And so I got Stephen King's It. Giler babs tebal, and it was only like, RM32. Should provide me with at least a week of reading, if I pace myself nicely. Plus I enjoy reading stuff like this, I guess, though some parts can be dry, some are really quite interesting.

But yeah, maybe in five years time, you might just prove me wrong. But that means I've got five years to go, and believe you me I'm going all out.

'Cause I can't find a thing here to get it done
Someday
You will get the best of me
Oh someday
Probably when I'm old and grey
I'm lying in my bed
And I will soon be put to rest now
Sha la la la la la la la

Sunshine - Matt Costa

Got me a ticket and I won't be long 'cause I can't go on and I gotta get goin'
Got me a ticket and I won't be long 'cause I can't go on and I gotta get goin' away

Won't Be Long - The Hives

Someday I'm finally gonna let go.
I know there's a better way.
I wanna know what's over that rainbow.
I'm gonna get out of here someday.
Someday.

Someday - Shawn Colvin

*Edit: It's 7:39 a.m., and I just finished reading a few more chapters of It.

And I've got to say:

I'll never stop,
I won't give up,
Don't think I'll stop,
Won't just give you up.

And what made me think this? Weird as it might sound, it was reading about a stuttering boy who got his fingers slashed because he reached into a photograph to see a clown.

Weird thing, life.

They Say I'm All About the Word Play

2008-11-13T20:11:00.011+08:00

Ooh I stand in the corner
Thinking over 1,2 what am I to do
Should I go home still sober
Or should I buy me another glass of wine
And forget about time?

Everybody But Me - Lykke Li

Why? I don't know. I just want to

Pain is pleasure. How many times have we heard that term being tossed around? How many times do we actually consider the meaning behind it? I seem to have this tendency to have elevated levels of pain, pleasure, and other emotional feelings (i.e.: happiness, anger, sadness) and I cannot seem to pin-point the reason why. See, this is the mystery for me. Why do I react towards something more than I logically should?

The past month (I just realised I've been using this phrase, or variants of it, very, very, very often lately) have been a turmoil. I've been easily susceptible to emotional swings, from euphoric highs to suicidal lows, all within the space of a few hours (minutes, even). I've been torn between anger and joy, with a little sadness thrown in the midst of them both, lately, and for the life of me I cannot figure out why.

I have found out what it is that makes me like this, but I can't stop these things. I haven't been able to do the "Yeah, okay, fine." sort of thing when I encounter these things. Sometimes I wish I can be cold, emotionless, numb even. It's like, I've gone back to my teenage angst years, where any little thing sets me off, and in my "seething rage" or "suicidal sorrow", I can't seem to think straight.

When I do finally regain my composure, I think back at the things that made me angry or shitty or whatever, they're petty. Some may be more serious than others (because, yes, there are non-petty things that get to me), but they all get the same emotional outburst.

I haven't been sleeping well. I haven't been living normally. I can't do things that I used to be able to do. I can't keep up with my head and my heart. It's 6 a.m. for fuck's sake and I'm up thinking about stuff like this.

My mum theorized that it could be because I have too much time to think, and I told her that I know my brain works more than it should, especially on things that it shouldn't work on. In that sense, I can't wait for work to begin. It'll occupy me, it'll give my brain a rest, it'll take some stress out of my life. Yes, work can be hard and stressful too, but it's the sort of thing that I know I can deal with. The sort of stress I can put my finger on, the sort of stress I can identify, I can confront.

I've always wanted to know how it'd feel if I did things like fall while running, or stick a hand out the window and hit a tree, or crash a car into something. Maybe it's because I think that physical pain can be dealt with. Pain that comes from within, that comes from the head and the heart, that I find it hard to deal with.

And the sad thing is, my life isn't that bad. Shitty things aside, it's actually great.

I'm the one who's making it horrible. La de da.

Yesterday i lost me a memory
I kept too long for no good reason
They seem to hang around to greet the future
And what goes around will come around most likely

Can i go with you tomorrow
I just wanna go, tomorrow

I remember an insect some kind of bee
That came around for a visit on my balcony
It made me so glad i cried
You got a pretty costume indeed

Can i follow you, tomorrow
I just wanna go, go tomorrow
Tomorrow

We landed on an old forgotten shore
That been kept away from sight
Since ancient times
Then i took command of some river boat
And steered it into the great wilderness

So if you wanna go where i go
If you wanna go where i go, tomorrow

Tomorrow - The Concretes

When The World Comes Crashing Down, Bit By Bloody Bit

2008-11-11T02:27:00.003+08:00

You just can't help but feel like taking extreme measures to put yourself out of misery, can you? I mean, what's a guy to do? Sure, there are some positives that help balance out (sort of) the negatives, but the negatives are the ones that leave the lasting, lingering, all-powerful painful feeling.

I don't regret. I just, "Wish I had." Wish I had done this, wish I had chosen that. Wish I had been born this. Wish I had been whatever the fuck it is that would've made things much better. Wish I was dead, mmm that's a nice one. I'm sure I'd find a use for it one day. Maybe not now.

Maybe.

Tinggal Kenangan, Gagal Segala Impian

2008-11-11T00:03:00.007+08:00

Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati

Kenangan itu
Hanya mainan bagimu
Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati
Yang telah engkau janjikan dulu

Sejati - Wings

Sometimes life just seems to say "Ah, fuck it" and just go on, kan? Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present. The pleasure and pain involved in living everyday can drive one insane. But savoured, each and every day, nonetheless.

Attended the Sneakers for College event on Friday with Mel, and met up with almost the whole bunch of Komodos there. Whoa some faces I haven't seen in ages, and there were a few that I haven't seen in more than a year, I think. It was a blast, everything from the people to the music. So much so that I didn't take many photos. Most of them will probably end up on Mel's blog, or her facebook album, since she was the one going round snapping. I was just having a good time.

So anyway, photos! No talk needed.

Her & Him

Taken by Dazed, more available at the Komodo Ninja blog.

Sadly the only photo like this throughout the night. Didn't play much with the effect.

Tinggal bertanya... Erti sejatiiiii!

And hey, who should drop by but ZS and ZY

Mr. Spoonman a.k.a Oneye

Um.. Yeah..

Was a night well spent. Thanks for the memories ;)

All I Can Say Is That My Life Is Pretty Lame

2008-11-10T23:34:00.006+08:00

I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane
I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

No Rain - Blind Melon

We celebrated Adele's birthday the other day at Fridays. Was quite fun seeing a couple of faces that I haven't seen in yonks. Well, not really, but whatever. It was a fun night. Photos!

Happy birthday :)

I wasn't too happy, actually.

Thought of suicide.

Adele, Kevin, Divya, Jasmine

They were promoting Allens...

But didn't mention the side-effects, which may include disjointed elbows and retardation of the facial muscles ;p

Even we succumbed to it. Damn women and their marketing strategies.

Even after we stopped, the effects lingered.

And she went home laughing.

So yeah, that's it for that day. I've got another post up my sleeve. Or is it up my left trouser leg? ;)

This One's for Keeps?

2008-11-06T03:31:00.008+08:00

Need I say I love you
Need I say I care
Need I say that emotions,
Something we don't share
I don't want to be sitting here
Trying to deceive you
Cos you know I know baby
That I don't wanna go.

We cannot live together
We cannot live apart
That's the situation
Ive known it from the start
Every time that I look at you
I can see the future
Cos you know I know babe
That I don't wanna go.

Throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
Is there nothing that I can say
To make you change your mind
I watch the world go round and round
And see mine turning upside down
You're throwing it all away.

Now who will light up the darkness
Who will hold your hand
Who will find you the answers
When you don't understand
Why should I have to be the one
Who has to convince you
Cos you know I know baby
That I don't wanna go.

Someday you'll be sorry
Someday when you're free
Memories will remind you
That our love was meant to be
Late at night when you call my name
The only sound you'll hear
Is the sound of your voice calling
Calling after me.

Just throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
There's nothing I can say
Were throwing it all away

Are we really throwing it all away? Like some unused stationery?

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed

I'm Gonna Tell Everyone To Lighten Up

2008-11-02T18:08:00.003+08:00

I've got a crummy job
It don't pay near enough
To buy the things it takes
To win me some of your love
Every time I turn around
I'm looking up, you're looking down
Maybe something's wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do

Soak Up The Sun - Sheryl Crow

Attempt 1: Toss at bottom of tree

I'm going a little nuts. Hahaha. Apprehension, anticipation, examination, assignmentation (lol wtf), anxiety, nervousness, tension, stress, and much much more. Ahhhhh!

So I decided to lighten up. With some flash photography. Hahahaha. And it's not what you think.

Don't Baby Your Gear : Flash

Attempt 2: Toss on grass

Attempt 3: Toss on pebbles

Attempt 4: Put under running water

*At this point I was going quite nutty and feeling pretty destructive

Attempt 5: Toss on grass again without wiping water off

Yeah, so I think I'll continue with the series, actually. Next up would probably be one of the lenses. Or something. I did get the body and lens (40d + BG-E2N + 24-70 L) quite wet just now when taking the water picture. Hahaha. Crazyyyyy

I'll Lift You Till You're Fine, Do You Want To Live In Now or Later?

2008-10-29T04:13:00.002+08:00

We may not get a second chance
It's not all out of my hands
Now is not gonna catch me by

Another Layer - John McLaughlin

And life can bring you to your knees

This week has been pretty nutty, with almost every night spent out till late, procrastination ruling my life, bad results screwing it up, and the looming prospect of final examinations and messed up lecturers does nothing to make it better.

So anyway, I've succumbed to the tablecloth culture, with the purchase of a hoodie (actually, thank you Lisa for the hoodie). Yeah, damn I've mentioned it before where my words come back and haunt me. Well, whoop dee doo.

Eh, go away!

Spent the majority of Wednesday hanging out with Kin Meng and Meph at the Curve and Cineleisure. Then Andrew popped by, and we wasted more time on the steps of Cineleisure and his office. And we played with Kin Meng's camera. A lot.

Oh, woe is me.

And again.

You can't get my face!

Oh, I made this kid cry. Hahahaha. Funny story.

Well, I want to say much much much more, but just thinking about it makes me all depressed and angry and whatnot. Gah! Damned assignments and results. It's a wonder I'm not all bald thanks to the stress.

/slit wrist

PS: Hope the Coffee and sweet put a smile on your face. It did, for me (okay, I don't know why, but it did. Sorta kinda)

I'll Put My Hand Over Your Eyes, But You'll Peep Through

2008-10-27T03:30:00.004+08:00

And though really all these moments are just in my head
I'll be thinking about them as I'm lying in bed
And I know that really it might not even come true
But in my mind I'm having a pretty good time with you

5 Years Time - Noah and the Whale

Woke up early on Saturday. And it was all, yellow...

So, Saturday, I was conned into waking up early, and went to breakfast with the family, where, insults aplenty, we pretty much had fun. Admittedly, it's been a while since we had a family breakfast, so I can't fault them for conning me into waking up early. How I did not realise immediately that banks don't open on Saturdays, I'll never know. Sigh.

Watched Star Wars Ep 3 last night, after coming back from dinner and a drive. It managed to get my mind off some things, and it was nice to watch Anakin fight Obi Wan (in what was described as the best damn lightsaber duel scene ever) again. Still get the chills at the last scene where Vader turns and breathes, though. I don't know, maybe the Star Wars geek in me can't accept the fact that this is probably the last episode.

Uh.. Reflection?
I've got two assignments left to finish, and three (?) exams to sit for. Hopefully this term my grades won't be as poor as I think they are. I've still got hope, but I'm very skeptical about it. I don't know, it's just something about seeing your grades way lower than what you expect that gives you a huge blow to the confidence. Affects all the other assignments, too. And here I thought I could do the first term with relative comfort. Oh, how naive, foolish and stupid I was.

Plus, the universe has a way of going about, and when something goes bad in life, usually it's accompanied by other bad things. This time there isn't any exception. But oh well, I think I'll only face it when I have to. For now, I'm not really dwelling on things, though I have to say I was distraught for a few nights, and I predict more to come (and I'm rarely wrong when it comes to this type of predictions, sadly. Pessimist, much?).

I don't need anyone to tell me. You are my soul rock.
But it was fun fun fun when we were drinking
And it was fun fun fun when we were drunk
And it was fun fun fun when we were laughing
And it was fun fun fun, oh it was fun.

You Think I Don't, But I Do

2008-10-24T05:13:00.006+08:00

I just won't accept it.

You smile hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see

Let Love In - The Goo Goo Dolls

Sometimes, you've just got to be nuts.

Was re-reading some of my really early entries on this site, and they brought a smile to my face, seeing how far I've come, seeing what I've been through, seeing things that are different back then. Though some photos (actually, a lot) have been lost due to theft, some still remain, though they aren't the originals, they're still there, somewhere, online.

Like this one, for example. Ahhh this was an interesting experience, no? Hahahaha. It was a, um, Thursday? Thinking back to that day made me laugh so much, though I think the one with the plunger didn't really see the funny side of things. Not immediately, anyway.

For fuck's sake, I'm going to kill ****** for this.

Mmm so yeah, I'm not actually reviewing how I've done so far, or whatnot. I just picked out a moment in life that interested me. Of course, there are more interesting moments, but I'm not touching on them, yet. For now, some sort of boredom kicks in, and I went outside to shoot a few very long exposure shots. Hahahaha. Shows how bored I was / am.

And tomorrow, going to the bank at 8.30 am (Yes, 8.30 am. What the hell. It's a bleeding Saturday!) and taking out some money for some payments. Aih, means sleeping early, waking early, and being grumpy.

*mumble grumble fart*

*Oh, I puked in college today. Hahaha. Wtf.

And the World Will Live As One

2008-10-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine - John Lennon

Well, it has been in the rain before, but I thought it'd like some shelter for once.

Amazing, isn't it, what divides, what unites. The one thing that's supposed to unite millions can separate two. Well, a guy can dream. Can imagine, anyway.

Anyway. Today I decided to stay in college and watch the Volleyball tourney, partly because Mel was in it, partly because I wanted to see if I could take photos, and partly because, well.. because. Plus, it's been a while since I've watched a live sport, and cheered, too, now that I think about it. Well, in a competition, anyway.

So yeah. It was very fun. I have little to no knowledge about the game, aside from the fact that one is supposed to hit the ball over to the opposing team, and not let the ball touch the ground on one's own side. That about sums up what I know. So I managed to learn a few things, like you could use your other body parts, and such. Hahaha. Mmmmm interesting.

The photos, well, to be frank they sucked. Ahhhh it was horrible. Most if not all were shot in RAW (because I thought I could boost the EC up by a stop or two, and also remove noise more effectively). Apparently it didn't turn out so well, anyway. Sigh, the woes of inexperience, bad lighting and a slow lens.

Photo stats (All were shot with this setting):

Camera : 40D
Lens : 24-70 2.8L
Mode : Manual
ISO: 3200
Aperture : 2.8
Shutter Speed : 1/320

But at the end of the day (night, technically) it was hella fun to sit there and watch. And cheer.

It was the wicked and wild wind, that blew the doors and let me in. Shattered windows and the sound of drums, people couldn't believe what I've become.

You're Everything In This World, But A Burden You Are Not.

2008-10-19T04:17:00.010+08:00

Open up your heart, what do you feel?
Open up your heart, what do you feel is real?

The big bang may be a million years away,
But I can't think of a better time to say:

World, hold on.

World Hold On - Bob Sinclair

Grrr. Don't disturb me when I'm eating.

Sometimes when things are smack in the middle of the open, obvious to be seen, we don't seem to see it. We skim over it, barely giving it a second glance or thought. We then go on and search for that exact same thing in harder places to find, oblivious to the fact that we have it right there. Sometimes we refuse to accept what is given to us, instead we want to look for it on our own, we want to work for it, we want to believe that we can achieve something better.

There is a phrase that has been going round for some time : "Don't look a gift horse in the mouth."

Apparently this came about because a horse's teeth can show how old a horse is, and so when given a horse, one should not look at the teeth, but one should be grateful for the present. Perhaps it is human nature to ask questions, to want more, to seek higher pleasure from something that is given. It is not uncommon to not feel grateful when we get something, since we probably have expectations and standards that we wish the gift lives up to, and we get disappointed when it does not.

Disappointment is a horrible thing. We are afraid to disappoint, we do not want to disappoint, and we do not want to be disappointed. Yet having said that, we can be quite easily disappointed in something just because it does not have that one particular aspect in an otherwise almost perfect something. Nothing is perfect, and we have to grasp that fact. I know I have to.

I'm so many things I wish I weren't

All my sorrows flew away
Hush, keep quiet, hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there's no one but you and me
There's no reason to go astray
Please stay.

Try and think about it,
If you're heart is closed don't lock it,
Keep your keys back in your pocket,
Think this through.

Stay - Estrella

People wonder why I do what I do, why I do not just look away, why I bother chasing what they think is a lost cause. I know that if I give up, I will probably hate myself later, and I will not be able to live with myself, knowing that I just threw is all away. Oh there are so many things that I sometimes wish I could just give up, not having to worry about this and that, not having to go through the pain and suffering, not having to live up to expectations, not having to live with the guilt of letting down myself, as well as others.

Chasing something gives me something to do, at the very least, and having a dream, a goal, it gives me reason to still function. Oh I've contemplated just dropping and dying too, believe you me, but when I think about what I leave behind, who I leave behind, and the things I could have done had I been alive..

Sometimes I see you as a gift. Actually, every time I see you is a gift. Every time I get to take you out for dinner, or lunch, or supper, that's a gift. Time is not a luxury that I truly have, and neither are you. You're a craving that I have to satisfy, you're the hunger I have to sedate, you're the need that I have to have to live. So even if I was given the gift of some (not a lot) time before things happen, I know I want more. What I have now, it is just not enough. It will never be.

In that vein, I for one am very guilty of not being grateful of things that I receive. I have been guilty for wanting more, for having questions as to why this was done, why I only got that when there was clearly more to give. Having questions as to why is one thing, not getting answers is another, and that is where disappointment steps in.

I have been guilty of being very disappointed in gifts, in things that I receive, and though that may be so, I am always afraid that my reaction might not be good enough to cover the disappointment in myself, and therefore in effect disappoint the person(s) that gave me the gift(s). I can say this though, I have been sincerely happy when receiving or giving something more times than I have been disappointed. I guess, it is never nice to disappoint, and it is not a nice feeling to be disappointed either.

But in my case, I would rather be disappointed, then to disappoint someone.

I know I'm guilty of the last bit.

Very.
Very.
Guilty.

KAMI Concert 2008

2008-10-19T04:05:00.001+08:00

Seluas laut yang terbentang
Dan buihnya terapung di awangan
Derita, derita yang mencengkam
Cuba untuk aku bertahan
Dimana oh wajah yang berkeliaran
Sungguh kudamba kehadirannya

Mawar Khayalan - Laila's Lounge

I was asked if I wanted to shoot some photos at the KAMI : The Concert @ Bukit Jalil yesterday, and of course, I said I would love to. Went there at around noon, and I managed to catch a few acts that I really wanted to see. Got in the media / crew place, too. Heeee :D

I have to say, thanks goes out to Edris for getting me in the thing in the first place, and the passes. And thanks also to the other 8tv people who helped.

I'd also like to thank my mom, my dad, my cat Snowball, and all the little people who made this work. I love you guys. *sniff*

Hahaha okay enough of this. Photos!
*In no particular order, and no names. I have forgotten who's who *embarrassed*

Yeah, it was fun :)

Darling, We've Got To Talk

2008-10-16T03:55:00.006+08:00

Major Edit!: Fuckin hell I just read Andrew's blog, and the lyrics I put up were there. Exact same ones. Damn ghey. So I changed the song of this post.

Oh, pretty girl
You turned it on, you turned it out, it all felt off
That's how it is, that’s how it was
You searched it all so well, underwater in a well
You smeared on cool lips while checking off a checked-off list
The situation’s never kind, feathering a dance-hall stride

Bad Education - Tilly and the Wall

class + boredom + pen + ruler + 10 cent coin

It's amazing how sometimes, the smallest of things can affect your outlook on life, or the way you go about living it. Depending on what that thing is, some might call it petty, whilst you might think it means the world. In that sense, it's more of a matter of perception, then, I guess.

Just now in class, we were discussing beauty and what it means to us. Being one of the three male students in the class, I gave a more.. male approach (for want of a better term) to the question, compared to the girls. They touched mostly on confidence and um.. yeah, confidence. Then I went and said it's about how she carries herself, walks, dresses, and probably exudes an aura of "hey look at me, I'm gorgeous" kind of thing. Very male, I guess.

So yeah. Then we went to the physical aspect of beauty, like, what aspect makes a woman / girl beautiful. Some answered the way they dressed, the way they smile, what their faces look like, et al. I said I'd find a person who can really pull of the traditional costume look, beautiful. Because I actually like to see people in their traditional costumes, though I don't really like to wear mine most of the time. Maybe because I look tiny in it.

So anyway, with regards to beauty, well the topic on physical appearance is one rather touchy thing right now. And it does tend to play around with one's confidence and perception of life. Like, there's this guy I know pretty well enough to say that he does tend to over-think things, and sometimes he makes big deals out of nothing, but he's also a pretty nice chap, if you get to know him. He might not show it much, but he's really irritated and/or bugged by one physical aspect that has plagued him for half his life, so far. That one aspect causes so much damage to his way of living, though sometimes he does forget about it and goes on with life. But ultimately, it'll come and bite him in the ass. So yeah. I could say he's pretty damn frustrated, actually.

Oh, and he thinks he's stubborn too. Mmmm yes he does. Headstrong, I'd call it. Hahaha.

And gosh I just read something that made my spine tingle all over. It's quite.. um.. sugary and so.. oh-my-god-y. Hahahaha. Wow. Actually almost got a headache trying to read that. It's like, my brain is saying to me, "Go ahead, read one more sentence and I'll jump out your ear. Then we'll see who's laughing now."

Or something like that.

You Pull Me Up, You Dust Me Off, You Pull Me Through

2008-10-13T21:55:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I don't feel alright
Keeps me shaken up all night
And there's nothing I can do
But I want to talk to you
This shit is making me feel bad
I'm so sick of feeling sad
Why can't I shake this mess
Keeps on running through my head

Dust Me Off - Tilly and the Wall

Mummy, don't leave me

Rainbows are interesting things, yeah? I mean, they're essentially colours caused by the refraction of light by water, amongst other things. There were two rainbows, just now, at around 6 pm. They were pretty well defined, too. Well, actually the second one wasn't so clear. But still. I've never seen two rainbows together before. Unfortunately, though, I didn't take a picture. Didn't have my camera with me, go figure.

I've always wondered what's on the end of a rainbow. Actually went and googled / wiki-ed rainbows, just to check. Apparently the end of a rainbow is impossible to reach. Sounds familiar, actually, the "impossible to reach" bit. Haha. I can think of many things that the phrase can be applied to.

Oh, did you hear about the two drums and the symbal that fell off a cliff? Badum, pssh! :D

Everyone's got that hat thing now. And umbrellas too. What's going on, then, eh?

Hahah. So a bunch of us decided to head into KL on Sunday, some to check out a couple of junkyard sales (Bijou (sp?) and the Lapsap one). Was mildly interesting, to me. Well, they're tailored more towards the female sex of the human race, anyway. Then we headed to Sg. Wang and more shopping ensued. Well, for the girls anyway.

Got myself two cheap tees, and then played Daytona with the rest of the guys, (haven't been in an arcade for the longest time ever, tau?) and then we headed to Starbucks to wait for the girls. Had a pleasant dinner, full of jokes and loud laughing and embarrassing topics.

So yeah, pleasant day, ultimately. Wouldn't mind doing it again.

Tell me what you thought about when you were gone
And so alone
The worst is over
You can have the best of me
We got older
But we're still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

The Best of Me (acoustic) - The Starting Line

What Is A Dream If It Doesn't Come True

2008-10-12T05:08:00.002+08:00

I let you get back under my skin
I let you break me down again
I let you get close way too close
But I see through it

You gave me that smile and I gave in
And you knew that I would
Time and time again you pulled me in
Just to give me up, gime me up again

Give Me Up Again - Jonny Lang

The dude's pretty good, though I'm not too sure about his other songs. But this one is real nice. Mmm. Yes. So much for an introductory paragraph. So fuck that, and let's just get on with this.

Words are interesting, if you really look at them. They have the power to change things, to shape minds, to make or break, so to speak. Yet they're just words, as many would put it. Hell, there's even a kids' nursery rhyme that goes something like, "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me". Well whoever came up with that obviously did not go through life as normal people would. Or he/she must've been a deaf person.

Anyway, sometimes, some people are sort of blessed, for want of a better word, with the ability to play around with words. Sometimes these people have nothing else to offer to the world, too. Or, well, that's what these people might think. Anyhow, Extreme had a song that has one part that is still a little painful, now that I think about it. Again. Had to do with words, if you didn't know.

Setup for some of the shots, yesterday, by the way.

And yeah. So words. A joy to play around with. But. Say the wrong thing, or hear the wrong thing, and your whole world is fucked.

Up . Side . Down .

So some people are learning to go beyond words, and I do think that for those people for whom words are one of the better attributes to the person, it can be quite challenging. For I believe that a person who is quite okay with words is also probably someone who thinks a lot (which in this case means thinks too much about things, or goes deeper into things than he/she should). And with thinking comes great reluctance to do things.

Reluctance, more in the sense that it's because of lack of confidence, I suppose. It's like, "Oh, what if so and so does not like what I do", or "What if other people see me as x (where x is usually a negative adjective)". Sch things do happen, mind you.

So, having said all that, I've somewhat a question in mind, that does seem to bother me at times. It's like that annoying stone stuck in your shoe that you can't seem to get out, nor do you have the time/chance to take out since you're walking very fast to keep pace with a friend who's weaving through people like a snake.

Why?